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A Little Speck on Recovery

Today’s Prompt: Grain

Let me begin with a new drawing I recently did within the past week all with watercolors (feast your eyes!):

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This piece shows a woman outside in nature, enjoying her mind and presence as her imagination billows out above her, cracking through the real world into a land of magic and promise. =] Drawn 5/22/16

Now, this isn’t the early morning daily prompt post it was meant to be, but I’ll try and see if I can get out what I want to all within the span of the next 20 minutes, before I go out for a facial today to get my zits zapped! =] Wasn’t that just a pleasant image? 🙂

So, it’s been a while since I’ve properly asked, but, how are you doing? How is life treating you and how are things?

I’m still trying to understand for myself whether my last stint in scratching myself was a relapse (as I intended it to be) or a lapse. Maybe the specifics don’t matter so much, but I think knowing which one it is will determine if I scratch myself again in the near future (i.e. over the next few days or if I take the other road and don’t). I’d like to know if this is the time I start over again with day one self-harm free or if I continue going on my free of repetitive self-harm many months long. Or, does it matter, so much?

In part, this ‘relapse’ still feels like more of a lapse to me. I feel like I’m starting new and fresh again, with a new beginning, not like the world has crashed down all around me. I know that recovery is always the next step ahead, and I don’t feel that I’ve lost much (except for some skin cells!) It sorta feels like a little speck on the recovery journey. Like, oh yeah, at that point I wandered off into the blueberry bushes but then I wound up back on track again after some blueberries smushed on my face.

I’m not sure. I still require further introspection and self-understanding before I can make a conclusive remark about the situation.

 

On the brighter side, I have a facial today, yay! It’s also going to feel like 90s outside today!! Which is ridiculously awesome! =]

I also have the breakfast for hope tomorrow! And I’ve gotten the June listings for IOOV presentations, so I’m going to sign up for those when I get back home this afternoon. I’m also going to do my final award blog post and I think I will structure out the next week for myself.

Also, I told you guys about how I went to the library recently, right? Well, on top of the four books I got this time around, I’ve also ordered some from other MA libraries one about OCD and one about BPD and I think one other… I’m interested to read about BPD as some of my new friends here struggle with it and I’d like to better understand it and what they may be going through. ❤ ❤ ❤ Hooray to further understanding!

 

So yeah, I think a nice long time outside journaling and just thinking about life and what I want to do and organizing myself sounds like a relaxing, fun time that will be engaging and insightful and then I can update you guys and myself about what I conclude when I’m done! Also, I got a C- in my Japanese Architecture class–I’ll take it!!

Just checked my other grades, I got an A- in Infancy and Childhood! YAY! WOOT WOOT! AWESOME PERSON OVER HEREEEE! lmao

Okay, that’s enough out of me for one post! 😉 See you guys later on today! ❤ ❤

Have a snazzy swoop and woop le de loop day! =]

 

 

Author:

Hi, my name is Raquel Lyons! I graduated in December 2018 with a BS in psychology from UMass Boston. I live with the cutest Chinese hamster ever named Galaxy with my Labrador retriever mix pupper Mocha (she is The Mokeys). My first little furry pal was named Nova, who was such a sweetheart. I love gazebos, color, ART, blogging, and most days--life! I am a mental health advocate, involved with NAMI-MA as an In Our Own Voice presenter. Upon graduating I plan on becoming more involved with NAMI's IOOV and peer-to-peer mentor recovery class, getting paid work for writing about mental health, find a neutral job (retail), work as a peer with lived experience (peer mentor) and eventually settle into a certified peer specialist role. I have dreams of starting a nonprofit organization under the name of this blog, writing several books (a memoir, a collection of my Mass Media articles and recovery oriented ones, a fiction novel, etc.), one day giving a TEDtalk and eventually returning for my master's in art therapy. Until then, here is my journey from one pole (recovery) to the next (wellness). I blog about mental health, my own experiences, #RecoveryHome, life updates, Recovery Restoration, book reviews, film reviews and more! Feel free to contact me any time. I'd love to hear from you!

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