I’m doing this soon after #5, so as to continue plowing forwards. Don’t want to waste another few weeks with inaction P:
In this piece, we were told to create a footstep path from where we’ve been to better times, as well as write a little bit about why forgiveness is important (bottom right).
I accidentally mixed up my metaphors in this piece, but as it reads from this view, there is the fog, tears and yearning for freedom (symbolized by the flying birds) for the fall of 2014 when I was diagnosed with OCD. To footsteps leading to the ‘blackhole’ and shitty clouds and white space surrounding the area (winter/spring 2015). And then there are the footsteps leading to green hills and a sunny sky. 🙂
It would have been more appropriate to have the blackhole first and then the white blankness second. 😛 Ah well.
And for the writing bit:
Forgiveness is important for me to move forward. Forging meaning from my experiences means that I can grow in my understanding and empathy for others. To forgive myself is to recognize I’m human and mistakes happen. But forgiveness can be freedom, and I wish to be free and better again. Recovery is a journey not a destination.
I love the idea of forging meaning, and I got it from this TED talk, I’m not sure if I’ve linked it before, but it’s a good one.
Forgiveness is something I still need to work on, even now. I haven’t mastered it, by far. In fact, I haven’t really put it into practice to move emotionally forwards and onwards from what happened, all of it, in my dark times of 2015. I imagine that’s evident in all my projection issues. I do have ideas and plans to address these more in the future, for articles and blog posts. I actually want to work on some pre-written work for the semester for the school newspaper. That’s something I’ll likely embark further on in August.
Speaking of, this reminds me of the other day when I ate breakfast outside on the swinging seat, and I thought about how one is meant to rejuvenate themselves over a summer break. It’s a good question, isn’t it?
How do you help to rejuvenate yourself? What goodies do you do for yourself when you need a break, a hiatus or just some basic self-care?
I also think that forging meaning from my experiences is useful so as to share my story and how I’ve worked towards Recovery and how that may help someone out there, too, who is struggling and walking on the path of Recovery. It’s neat when you think about it to imagine each of us soldiers walking together in unity on our path of Recovery. 🙂
I also think that forgiveness to myself means letting go of the bad decisions I made and using humor to be able to talk about them, share them and let them sit out in the open light rather than feeling ashamed of them or hiding them.
Which reminds me, too, I want to include more talk about my suicide attempts in my IOOV presentations and in a few other writing places. As of right now for the presentations, I only slightly if at all mention them, but they play a larger role than that. I’ve thought and imagined how I would tailor my presentation if I presented at school. :3 I want to keep working on and improving my story and go after that FLOW I so dearly want it to have. When I can achieve that, I will be even more confident in my abilities to present and be ready to go after my TED talk dream. 😀
Just gotta keep practicing and working on it until then!
I’m mildly distracted writing this one up again. But I hope I have covered some basics here. And that my musings are amusing, at least. Again, I don’t have all that much experience yet with forgiveness and how it’s impacted my journey thus far. I will set it aside as another prompt to return to and think about and journal about. As of right now, my brains are scattered and do not wish to cooperate. XD
Anywho, stay safe, once more! ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤