Welcome to the Official Launch of August’s 2017 #WWRRM

Late post, whoops, my bad. You may have thought I wasn’t going to post today, the last day of July 2017, but you were wrong. Because here I am, ready to post away!!

This post is a launchpad for what we can expect to see on the RecoverytoWellness boat here at WordPress and on Twitter and maybe a few videos here and there on Youtube about #WWRRM or Worldwide Recovery Recognition Month, which you guessed it, starts TOMORROW!

Here is the OFFICIAL THUMBNAIL for this next month:

Made with Canva




It’s a very beautiful, appreciative unicorn. πŸ™‚



In this next month, be prepared to see some of the following, but not limited to, posts:

  1. SADIA2 (Song a day in August; mental health edition)
  2. Teachable Moments (including lectures, art therapy, journaling, etc.)
  3. Coloring pages
  4. Artwork
  5. Daily prompts/photo challenges
  6. Coping strategies (series)
  7. Reasons to live (series)
  8. Informational posts and resources
  9. Coping boxes
  10. Coping treasures bag
  11. Nonprofits
  12. #RecoveryHome
  13. Recovery Restoration
  14. Tags & Awards


All posts will follow the values of positivity, hope, support, empathy, compassion, inspiration, integrity, honesty, comfort and helpfulness.

If YOU have a suggestion for #WWRRM topics to be covered OR YOU want to write a guest post, have me reblog a post of yours, FEEL FREE TO COMMENT OR EMAIL ME AT the email listed above (recoverytowellness@hotmail.com) OR Tweet at me (@RecoveryRaquel) also above.

I am EXCITED and cannot wait to explore these topics with you guys!! I have a inkling of what my first couple of posts will be, although I will say general updates and non-recovery related topics will pop up alongside the main month’s events.

I also video recorded the coloring of our MASCOT which literally took me TWO HOURS to do, but that will eventually be up next week on my Youtube channel. I took progress pictures of the ribbon sequence. I will talk more about these separately tomorrow, as well as share those progress photos. πŸ™‚

This is just sort of the DELIVERY OF FINISHED PRODUCTS first. πŸ™‚



Okay, I’m done EXCITEDLY YELLING πŸ™‚ Honest.

Thank you SO MUCH (whoops had some left in me) for everything you guys!! I can’t wait to continue on with this daily blogging and share some EVEN BETTER ARTWORKS that I have yet to make but will enjoy making for this month’s events.

Thank you for everything. I hope you can participate! πŸ™‚ ❀ ❀ ❀ ❀

Stay safe.


The Tea Party | Completed

Hey everyone!! A bit of a late post again, my apologies for that! My concentration is a little off at the moment, watching a movie in the background, low lighting, later evening and opened tabs for Twitter and deviantART and Youtube in the background, plus watching for text messages. Yeah, quite a bit! ^^

Any who, this is a pretty easy update. I finished the tea party drawing!! Without further ado:

My Artwork! THUMB

As a refresher, here is the original sketch:


When I finished the bottom:


The pink on her eyes is eyeshadow, by the way. Then there’s her eyeliner. I decided not to outline the nose as it’s still pretty visible and I thought outlining it would look off rather than not. πŸ™‚ Her nails are done, too! :3

Then the top half:


Andddd yeah, that’s about it! If you’re new or just stopping by this post, the tea party is all about attending to rumination from mental health conditions and how the illusion is innocent and safe but the reality is glorifying and a lie, like the silver shadows around the owners of the puppet. Yuck!

I have my mascot for August as a WIP for #WWRRM so that’s cool. πŸ™‚ I will be coloring it tomorrow while my parents are out.

I’ve also done videos of the whole process for this drawing and they will be up this week once I work on finding more copyright free music πŸ™‚

I’m planning on doing a video for the mascot drawing as well. I already have an idea for one post if not split up posts. And more preparation will be ongoing tomorrow.

Let’s here it for WWRRM! πŸ˜€


Thanks for stopping by! ❀ ❀ ❀ If you would like to request a drawing to be made for you, send me a comment or an email! Thanks!! (If you email me, it’d help if you tell me through a comment, just so I make sure to check the email, thanks!)

Just a Little Human | SADIJ3 Day #15

Song a day THUMB

Chosen song:

Human by Christina Perri


Chosen Lyrics:

“I can do it

I can do it
I’ll get through it
But I’m only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I’m only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
‘Cause I’m only human, yeah
I’m only human
I’m only human
Just a little human
I can take so much
Until I’ve had enough”


Hey everyone! Welcome back to another SADIJ3! It may even be one of the last ones for this month. πŸ™‚

I first heard this song actually sung in my last hospitalization. It’s an emotional song and it’s mainly about knowing your limits as a person and that we’re all only human. Sometimes we expect more out of ourselves like we’re the output of machinery than we deserve to, since that pressure is unattainable and we are imperfect beings with a lot of thoughts and emotions and behaviors that sometimes conflict in our lives so we have to take time out to become aware of them.

Basically, we’re all just works in progress. Our stories aren’t ending yet, and so we’re busy writing up the chapters and filling up the pages.

It’s going to be okay, we just have to get through today, get through this tough moment, and everything will settle once again. Radical acceptance, is all πŸ˜‰

Thanks for checking in!!

Chosen emoticon:

πŸ€“πŸ€“πŸ€“ = Person with glasses on! :O

h i d i n g | Artwork

Today’s prompt – Hidden

My Artwork! THUMB

Could have sworn this daily prompt was the word ‘hiding’ instead. Ah well, it still works. Any who. Short post today.

My therapy session, as I said on Twitter today, got a volcano shoved up its ass. What that means is one of my parents was present and we were still talking about things that happened two weeks ago that I was just uninterested in and felt like we were living in the past (I wanted to talk about current events, live feed as my therapist said). It was the first time in therapy where there was a noticeable tension (I didn’t notice it, T did) and I was going through all other alternatives to escaping the situation. I thought and imagined storming out, ending the session there, crying (I was nearly there), and others I don’t care to remember. It felt like there was no way out and I got overwhelmed and felt like there were no options, at the same time as my reminding myself to look for those options.

It was a shit storm.

T and I managed to salvage the rest of the session (half an hour) and come up with a plan ahead of time if that ever happens again, which is helpful. T also offered for me to have another appointment tomorrow, which they don’t do as a rule, to help salvage the situation. Which I appreciate. Felt guilty for, yes, but m definitely appreciating that now assssss

My parent is STILL in a sour, bitchy mood because of it. Or, because of what happened. *rolls eyes* STILL. It’s like eight hours later and they haven’t spoken to me since.

Then with my Youtube video I got a notice that one guy’s music is copyright claimed so then I felt overwhelmed that I couldn’t find an alternative song and what to do about it and there’s just not a lot of good, free music online and I just got stressed out.

I took myself out of the situation and the Internet for a while, listening to my iPod in my room, smelling the sachet I got recently (the nice smelly scents in a pouch), texting people and drawing, or trying to. I didn’t like how it was coming out though, but I tried again and this is what I wound up with:

I went full blown artsy with it, listening to music and just expressing myself purely. Haven’t done this in a long time, especially in this medium, not since I took that art class almost a year ago. It was rather freeing, and I’m pleased with the results, and will likely be more pleased and comfortable with it as time goes by.


It has my RtW signature and the date 7/27/17 on the bottom half. I used graphite pencil, 2H pencil, charcoal and my fingers (the streaks and to blend).

It’s fitting, because it’s a gray scale of a person in a fetal position, which is a throwback to my old depressive episode days. I’ve always wanted to draw this just never got around to it.

Today I felt like hiding when all the shit was hitting the fan. Now, I just want it to be over. Here is the outline I first did:


And also some other angles of the main image:



That’s all I got for today. I really didn’t and wasn’t sure if I was going to be able to blog tonight, and I’m glad that I still prevailed even if it was beyond my scheduled time (I don’t blog now after 8p). Hope you enjoyed this post!

Thanks for stopping by! πŸ™‚ I’ll feel better soon. ❀ ❀ ❀ xxx

The Tea Party | Sketch

Today’s Prompt = Tea

My Artwork! THUMB

This blog post is multi-faceted, let me just get that out of the way now. I’d like to discuss again, as I’m sure that I’ve mentioned the role of the tea party before in my life and certainly on my blog, the tea party phenomenon. It fits equally as such because last night I visited the tea party and today’s daily prompt is tea! πŸ˜€

Let’s jump on in!

First, the art piece I will be showcasing in this post is an official work in progress and is a sketch, that I made about an hour and a half ago and that I video recorded the process (which will be up on my Youtube channel the following day) of. So, that’s exciting. I’d like to talk about the process and the concept of the piece within this post, as I also explore the concept of what the “tea party” really is.

With that said, here is the artwork I’m referring to:


The bottom half of the drawing features a woman with her eyes closed, hand under her chin. The top half is what is going on in her mind–the tea party. DUN DUN DUNNNN. (I have about 20 minutes left to upload this post so the Youtube video will be updated to it by tomorrow).

The tea party is essentially the time one spends ruminating among the crowd of mental health conditions. I used to call it (and still struggle with calling it this) the OCD tea party but I don’t believe I really live with OCD anymore, not the classic type at least. Essentially, I wanted to showcase the mental torture of the tea party, the innocence displayed that is fabricated since the actual tea party is menacing, disgusting and a glorified lie, while not being morbid about it. A difficult feat, for sure.

You will see in the AiP (art in progress) that I started out a little morbid then decided I didn’t want that in my new sketchbook and didn’t like the connotation arising in it. So I changed it to how it looks here.

Here, it’s more that the person in the imagined bubble is acting as a puppet with depression (left) and obsessionality (right) controlling them.

The tea party is often experienced by myself when I put in my musical headphones, stand up in my room and pace around while “talking” to myself. Le sigh.

I haven’t figured out a good way to break this cycle, just yet. But I’m sure that I will come up with one.

When the tea party calls for you, what do you do?

Here are close ups of the bottom and top:


Okay, I would do more, but I’ve legitimately been running around with the video part and the writing and drawing and everything so this is a rough draft of this post, at best. I’ll update it and re-work it a bit tomorrow. I just don’t want to miss the fact that this is the start of WEEK NUMBER 4 for daily blogging!!!!

Thanks for reading, peeps!!

(Also I’m going to the movies to see Spiderman Homecoming tonight so that’s the reason for the rush, we leave in 15).


Here’s the finished video on Youtube, please check it out!!

This post will have a follow-up once I’ve completed coloring it in and making a secondary video of that. It rained today (Thursday) so I couldn’t film, but hoping tonight/tomorrow I can try again.

If there’s any issues with the video like bloops and blips, let me know as I was rushing when I made it. Hope you guys enjoy!! πŸ˜‰

Traditionally Nontraditional

Today’s Prompt ~ Traditional

Apparently, traditional art means much more than I thought it did. I thought it meant working with pencil only, but no, much larger than that. So large I really don’t want to spend the time trying to research and understand and read up on it because it really doesn’t matter that much.

So, onto the actual post!

Today’s post I will be sharing 3 works of art:

My Artwork! THUMB

Excluding the one above, that’s just my thumb for this post!

I made it on Canva though πŸ˜€




So this is a drawing I made spontaneously back in May! I sent this in the mail to Tiffany Lewis, who is the owner of the non profit organization Pens for Pals about anti-bullying and suicide prevention. Phew, that was a handful! She and her volunteers write weekly/bi-weekly letters to people worldwide to help provide support and a listening pen. πŸ™‚

You can probably Google her and find her Twitter, Youtube, Facebook, podcast, etc. She’s really sweet! So I made her this drawing yonder ago!

It was actually while my friend Elliot was over the house. I first drew it in pen and then I went in with watercolors and pearlescent watercolors (the shiny parts), so yeah! πŸ™‚





This is but ONE of the drawings I made while I was inpatient this last time. It features two women, one upside down either way you look at it, with an hourglass in the middle between them that has a rainbow of grains that reads: “All Life Is Temporary”.

Which is essentially meaning that all life and its moments and situations are temporary ones–so if you’re in either a great or unpleasant place, it won’t last forever! And that’s the way it was meant to be, that’s life! Let it lift you up and bring you joy and hope, rather than bring you down into the shadows and abyss.

I made this drawing while hanging out with Kaiden, we were doing some pacing as pacing buddies do, and he had complimented me on my people drawing so I was inspired to make more.

I did the initial line work in pencil! And the eraser I had was crappy so couldn’t really erase anything!

Then I did the color in CRAYONS! Fucking love crayons now. πŸ˜€ Let me know what you all think! πŸ™‚ (My idea for tomorrow’s post is to talk about readership and comments. *nods*)




The completed version is above–BUT WAIT! I have in progress photographs too! πŸ˜€

The concept for this piece was actually inspired by a good friend of mine on Twitter, who I had told that my therapist says to think of my falls as mere stumbles, and they responded with this phrase. I was really inspired by it and I decided I wanted to write it down as an AId (Art Idea, drawing) and then I was really in the mood so I decided to draw it that night!

But when I went in with pencil I didn’t like how it was coming out so then I almost gave up but then decided to go back to my roots and said FUCK IT and went in with the paintbrush for watercolors instead!! πŸ˜€

Here’s the in progress photos:

Just slightly out of order for the first two but it’s good everywhere else (not that I sat there to watch it).

Of course the concept is about mental health conditions (or other such struggles) and crawling away from them towards the brightness of recovery. I used pearlescent watercolors again in this piece, too. Maybe I shall work on a drawing tonight, as well.

I did a LOT today, but that’s for another post!

That is all that I wanted to share for this artwork post today. More will come as music inspired, fanfic cover art and IOS! πŸ˜€

See ya, peeps!


Hey everyone! Welcome back to another post.

In this post, I thought I’d chat about making progress–mainly how we make progress in our lives through small steps taken in each moment and how while that can seem insignificant, in reality it is actually HUGE and can pave the way forward for our bigger attainments of goals and dreams. πŸ™‚ Everything starts with a small step forwards!

So, firstly, I’d like to discuss how structure has helped me in the past few weeks. I’m certainly having my struggles with it (too much free time where I wind up snoozing with Mocha, oops!) and even a couple of days where I got lazy and didn’t fill in my schedule all the way, yet it was always in the back of my mind and it helps me to remember what I did each day and what I didn’t get to do and what I can try again to do the next day or the day after that.

This has been a progressive stance as although I have that big planner of mine, I get intimidated by it sometimes and forget to–or purposely avoid–opening it up to jot down my schedule.

I’m hoping I can work my way into using it again or at least work through another set of stationery to do so.

Like people have told me before, even if you jot down your to do or schedule on a napkin, that works! Just get it down!!

I’ve also been working towards that goal of filling in journals and workbooks. It hasn’t quite lifted off the ground yet, but I’m envisioning myself doing it and getting closer and closer to actually doing it. Maybe tomorrow will be the day! πŸ™‚

I would love to challenge myself when it comes to breaking some of my “rules”. Mainly things like not jotting things down on napkins or wanting to print something when in reality I could just handwrite it but I linger and procrastinate and wind up not getting things done! I have another goal I can work on tomorrow, too (my Mom won’t be home and my Dad will be sleeping so I’ll be alone with Mocha for the majority of the time). Maybe I can even do another Youtube video! (I’m thinking of making one tonight of me making a couple of bracelets).

Any who, I’ve also worked on READING today which I haven’t been able to do for a WHILE. So that was cool. I’m hoping I can get 30 pages more in so that I’ll only have 200 pgs left for tomorrow to finish it.

I also want to work on my book reviews/notetaking and check up on textbooks by the weekend, order my blog’s promotional stickers and do my laundry/take a shower. Maybe shower tonight to get it out of the way.

I cleaned the inside and the top of my desk recently, too. πŸ™‚ It looks NICE now and usable. I even added my starry lights overlaying the top of it so it looks extra snazzy at night. I’ll try for some pictures or video some time soon.

I would also like to gather my material for the Mocha video and for another IOS video.

As well as spend some time doing creative writing.

By this weekend I want to pick out my notebooks and folder for this upcoming semester! πŸ˜€ I will be part-time actually, though having the workload of 3 classes. IT’S A LIE!

Today I also went food shopping, which I think from hearing how anxious other people get in public is starting to rub off on me a little. I don’t get anxious, just uncertain. But I manage!

I’m definitely wanting to get in time for drawing this week as I have to prep for August’s posts! I also want to fulfill a few other ideas I have like making Kaiden a card (I just realized I could have given him a sticker I found the other day but I forgot to), making my positivity jar, and burning a couple of CDs for my coping box and my car with music that helps me. πŸ™‚

I also have to do some brainstorming on what August’s themed posts will be like–maybe even making a category for them and some thumbs! I have like 11 thumbs in total now, I just haven’t been able to– fuck, I forgot one. I’ll add it the next time. I forgot I had one for SADIJ3, but oh well. That’s okay.

Additionally, I would like to end this post–wait, I forgot my main point!

Now, in my drafts I have only these posts left as I’ve worked on the other ones and posted them since the last drafts in progress post!

  1. Recovery A to Z Challenge. F is for friendship and a snippet on forgiveness
  2. My Life’s Pursuit
  3. “The Edge of Seventeen” film review
  4. “Demolition” film review
  5. #RecoveryHome Project Day 4-7
  6. Cut Book review

NOW for the last mentioning:

While I was inpatient this last time, I was telling Kaiden about the whole living with the uncomfortable and tolerating it rather than trying to get rid of it. Exposure therapy, essentially. And how you’ll wind up habituating to the anxiety over time and repeated exposure. Anyways, I challenged him to change his ping pong paddle as he had gotten used to this one particular one and liked it a lot, yet he changed it. And from that point on he’s been able to use that one small moment to pave his recovery pathway. (In the sense of challenging himself to uncomfortable situations that last temporarily yet may not have been something he’d have done before. And being able to relate that to his further treatment goals and you get the idea).

Pretty remarkable, I’d say. It’s interesting how significant a change, a ripple effect, it’s made for him and I’m super honored that I was a part of that. πŸ™‚ He’s probably reading this now, too, so hey buddy!! *waves*

All right, that’s it for this post! Maybe I’ll explore more in the future but for now, this is good. πŸ™‚

Good night, folks! ❀ ❀ ❀

Strength Comes Only After the Storm’s Gone | SADIJ3 Day #14

Song a day THUMB

Chosen Song:

Cry by Jamestown Story


Chosen Lyrics: (ALL OF THEM)

Tell me what’s wrong, tell me why you’re broken
come here for a moment, I’ll wrap you up in my arms
So talk, I’ll only listen
and should you lose control of that lump in your throat

Just go on and cry, let it all out
Hold on to me tight, surrender your pride
Go on and cry

Pain, the hurt has taken over
so bring on those teardrops, and I’ll be the shoulder
strength comes only after the storm’s gone
there’s no use in hiding the thunder and lightning

It’s funny how you realize after it’s over
the one thing you needed was to lose your composure
hold on real tight, go on and cry

Connection to the song:

Hey everyone! Welcome back to another SADIJ3! Tonight’s post is brought to you by Jamestown Story, which I fell in love with coincidentally from loving the musical talent and singer’s voice in a song I’ll mention down below! (It’s very depressing and is about suicidality so be warned about that! It’s a song to listen to when you feel alone, to remind you that others have felt the way you have before, too, and that the unspoken rule is that it DOES GET BETTER, so listen to other songs within this series to get yourself upright again!)

But yeah, I found this song by this band and really loved the message behind it and how it was written and the music of it, too. Basically, all of the lyrics are used here because the song is just THAT GOOD and I couldn’t piece out little bits, ALL OF IT IS IMPORTANT. And is a good reminder piece for those of us who may struggle with showing our vulnerability–maybe I will do some commentary in the future on Brene Brown’s vulnerability TED talks and other mental health related TED talks…sounds like a plan! I’ll file them under Film/Misc. Reviews, which I still need a folder for on the bottom of my blog… I’ll work on it! πŸ™‚

Any who, here is the other song I mentioned at the start and a couple of honorable mentions:

Honorable mentions:

Chosen lyrics for “Nothing’s Forever”:


I don’t know when, I don’t know how
but that was then and this is now

So baby if we’re going down I don’t wanna remember
that I was there to watch us fall and learn that nothing’s forever

Yeah I don’t wanna lose it all I wanna get it together
but I know it’s gonna get much worse before it’s gonna get better

That was then, this is now
I don’t know when, I don’t know how
I don’t know if I’ll survive but God I’ll try


Chosen lyrics:

You keep on running, no direction in your steps

Show me something, something you have left

I think you’re gonna hurt someone

If you keep running away, you keep running away

You’re gonna hurt someone

If you don’t change

I always enjoyed the bold bits above here, as I relate to them in the sense of self-harm and trying to run away from problems when really it just makes things worse! 😦 πŸ˜›

Chosen emoticon:

πŸ’‹πŸ’‹πŸ’‹= kissing lips!

Thanks for reading and viewing, everyone!! (I’ll be doing an update post about the posts/drafts process I have left, as I’ve gotten a lot done!! YAY!)

Emergency Vet

Life Update Thumb

Hey everyone!

Just a more general life update again. I don’t have much to say today and am feeling pretty lazy and tired. So, I figured I’d get my post out of the way today and just write a little bit rather than waiting for later and being either too tired to write or still not having much to say.

So that was HOW this post started out at around 1p this afternoon. What transpired afterward is what gave this post its new title and why I’m writing it so late again.

So, Mocha was outside for maybe half an hour in the shade mostly on this uberly humid/hot day. When she came back inside she had a little bit of water but was starting to over salivate. She had a couple of pieces of cantaloupe (not my doing) and then her over salivating was definitely OVER SALIVATING because she was drooling all over the place–getting it on her soggy paws, her lips and chin, her body and the couch’s blankets. Then she puked, twice.

Naturally, I had the cognitive distortion of catastrophizing and thought it might be heatstroke or her overheating (and I tried Googling information on what to do about it, because she was unnaturally hot when she came inside) and then was super concerned she was going to die on me, so I started crying and freaking the fuck out and packed my backpack to head out to bring her to the emergency animal hospital.

But, in my doing so, I slipped down ALL of the stairs on the short landing and saved my back a lot more pain by having on my backpack. (Seriously, that thing saved my ass!) Except my actual ass got a little bit of a beating.

Any who, Mocha was getting weak and such so my Dad and I wound up bringing her to the vet nearest to us (after calling ahead and all that jazz).

Well, 4 hours later and $175 out of our pockets, she was doing better on her own. They think she might have eaten something she shouldn’t and got sick because of that. Not an allergic reaction because there was no swelling and they didn’t really mention heat stroke and her vitals were fine.

She held in her pee like a trooper, too!

She was pretty tired this evening afterwards (legit, we were gone from 3p-6:30p) though she did eat her late dinner.

After that, I later on fed Galaxy too and cleaned up his wheel–despite us no longer having any paper towels–and now I’m writing this post sweating my ass off at almost 10:30 at night.

I’m going to be heading to sleep soon, after I watch some slime videos, planner it out and then just snooze for the rest of the next 9 hours.

All is well again on the home front, although the escapade pretty much demolished my plans for the weekend. I was going to bring Mocha into doggy playtime tomorrow but now I’m not so sure. And my Mom’s pulling a mood so she doesn’t want ME to go either. Ugh.

On the bright side, I’m probably going to hang out with Kaiden so that’s cool.

I’ll be trying to devise some type of structure for myself. Until tomorrow and certainly after I kill this black spider, see ya peeps!!

❀ ❀ ❀

PS It probably didn’t help that I was sorta watching a Youtuber discuss his 2 year old puppy’s passing away this afternoon. Mmm, no, probably not.

PPS I also was forced to keep that backpack in the car when we got to the animal hospital which sucked doubly because then I had no phone and no ability to cope. Fucking thanks. Other than being immensely bored, it went all right. Felt unproductive as FUCK but all right, nonetheless.