Progress

Hey everyone! Welcome back to another post.

In this post, I thought I’d chat about making progress–mainly how we make progress in our lives through small steps taken in each moment and how while that can seem insignificant, in reality it is actually HUGE and can pave the way forward for our bigger attainments of goals and dreams. 🙂 Everything starts with a small step forwards!

So, firstly, I’d like to discuss how structure has helped me in the past few weeks. I’m certainly having my struggles with it (too much free time where I wind up snoozing with Mocha, oops!) and even a couple of days where I got lazy and didn’t fill in my schedule all the way, yet it was always in the back of my mind and it helps me to remember what I did each day and what I didn’t get to do and what I can try again to do the next day or the day after that.

This has been a progressive stance as although I have that big planner of mine, I get intimidated by it sometimes and forget to–or purposely avoid–opening it up to jot down my schedule.

I’m hoping I can work my way into using it again or at least work through another set of stationery to do so.

Like people have told me before, even if you jot down your to do or schedule on a napkin, that works! Just get it down!!

I’ve also been working towards that goal of filling in journals and workbooks. It hasn’t quite lifted off the ground yet, but I’m envisioning myself doing it and getting closer and closer to actually doing it. Maybe tomorrow will be the day! 🙂

I would love to challenge myself when it comes to breaking some of my “rules”. Mainly things like not jotting things down on napkins or wanting to print something when in reality I could just handwrite it but I linger and procrastinate and wind up not getting things done! I have another goal I can work on tomorrow, too (my Mom won’t be home and my Dad will be sleeping so I’ll be alone with Mocha for the majority of the time). Maybe I can even do another Youtube video! (I’m thinking of making one tonight of me making a couple of bracelets).

Any who, I’ve also worked on READING today which I haven’t been able to do for a WHILE. So that was cool. I’m hoping I can get 30 pages more in so that I’ll only have 200 pgs left for tomorrow to finish it.

I also want to work on my book reviews/notetaking and check up on textbooks by the weekend, order my blog’s promotional stickers and do my laundry/take a shower. Maybe shower tonight to get it out of the way.

I cleaned the inside and the top of my desk recently, too. 🙂 It looks NICE now and usable. I even added my starry lights overlaying the top of it so it looks extra snazzy at night. I’ll try for some pictures or video some time soon.

I would also like to gather my material for the Mocha video and for another IOS video.

As well as spend some time doing creative writing.

By this weekend I want to pick out my notebooks and folder for this upcoming semester! 😀 I will be part-time actually, though having the workload of 3 classes. IT’S A LIE!

Today I also went food shopping, which I think from hearing how anxious other people get in public is starting to rub off on me a little. I don’t get anxious, just uncertain. But I manage!

I’m definitely wanting to get in time for drawing this week as I have to prep for August’s posts! I also want to fulfill a few other ideas I have like making Kaiden a card (I just realized I could have given him a sticker I found the other day but I forgot to), making my positivity jar, and burning a couple of CDs for my coping box and my car with music that helps me. 🙂

I also have to do some brainstorming on what August’s themed posts will be like–maybe even making a category for them and some thumbs! I have like 11 thumbs in total now, I just haven’t been able to– fuck, I forgot one. I’ll add it the next time. I forgot I had one for SADIJ3, but oh well. That’s okay.

Additionally, I would like to end this post–wait, I forgot my main point!

Now, in my drafts I have only these posts left as I’ve worked on the other ones and posted them since the last drafts in progress post!

Recovery A to Z Challenge. F is for friendship and a snippet on forgiveness
My Life’s Pursuit
“The Edge of Seventeen” film review
“Demolition” film review
#RecoveryHome Project Day 4-7
Cut Book review

NOW for the last mentioning:

While I was inpatient this last time, I was telling Kaiden about the whole living with the uncomfortable and tolerating it rather than trying to get rid of it. Exposure therapy, essentially. And how you’ll wind up habituating to the anxiety over time and repeated exposure. Anyways, I challenged him to change his ping pong paddle as he had gotten used to this one particular one and liked it a lot, yet he changed it. And from that point on he’s been able to use that one small moment to pave his recovery pathway. (In the sense of challenging himself to uncomfortable situations that last temporarily yet may not have been something he’d have done before. And being able to relate that to his further treatment goals and you get the idea).

Pretty remarkable, I’d say. It’s interesting how significant a change, a ripple effect, it’s made for him and I’m super honored that I was a part of that. 🙂 He’s probably reading this now, too, so hey buddy!! *waves*

All right, that’s it for this post! Maybe I’ll explore more in the future but for now, this is good. 🙂

Good night, folks! ❤ ❤ ❤