I Didn’t Know I Could Get This Low |SADIA2; ft. New Layout Photos, Day #4 Black&White Photography & A Vent| #WWRRM

Today’s Day #4 submission of black&white photography is at the end.

I will also include the new photo images for the layout of this blog. 🙂

Enjoy this post!!


Before I get started with the main topic of this post, I need to clear my head from the cobwebs and spindly spiders that are encompassed in my mind at the moment. (And as you can now tell from the title we have a LOT of ground to cover here. Feels like my life at this point!!)

So, I was supposed to work a lot on coursework today (as you’ll see at the end, that’s what today’s photograph is on) but things didn’t go according to plan. Using the coping strategy “a brief vacation” turned into a two hour nap that at LEAST when I woke up from I felt more energized (although I’m NOT very tired now and it’s 9p) and got my assessment assignment done within one hour. But procrastination rolled into YouTube videos and Twitter threads (not my own this time) made the hours go by fast and now I’m struggling to keep my head up above the water. Because there’s A LOT of water here now.

And I mean I DO have a plan for how I’m going to attack the situation now, so that’s SOMETHING. I’m going to write out a more concise and understandable list for myself for all my remaining assignments and the weeks they were attached to, or something like that.

I was able to use my planner for dates things are due so that’s also helpful. I have to return 3 books to the local library tomorrow/Monday, as one of the books I started but was really, really struggling with so I’m going to write down the notes for the review from the page flags I currently have so I can take them out and return the book and later this year attack the 3 again when I have more time (hopefully before the end of this year).

I have about 6 other books from various places plus ones I own that I can use and read and review in the interim. There are no shortage of books in my possession, that’s for sure!

I’d like to update with a new video relatively soon, although I’m having problems with that quality-wise and I’m stuck with how to fix that because my quality of 4 videos have been shot with a muddy shoe (only online, the originals are fine) and I think it MIGHT be because of a setting when exporting that I changed but the alternative cannot be large GB files because they crash my computer entirely. So, I’m kinda stuck there.

I’d also like to update my fanfics soon, but that’s a whole other problem.

I also need to clean/re-organize my room because it’s a hella mess. There’s just so much stuff EVERYWHERE–and probably would help my mental health if I fixed it up a bit. There’s just SO MUCH to do all at once!!!

I don’t know, it’s just a lot. I know I’d like to clean my room by the end of the summer. I still have to order my fall materials from the website–hopefully tonight. Then I have to finish the academic list from that current class and fill out how long I was online today (I’ve been tracking that for 3 weeks now) and fill out my journal for today’s post.

Speaking of, I’m converting yesterday’s post into an article for the semester.

I figured today would be a good day to do another song a day challenge because there’s a song I’m listening to right now that’s pretty neutral and is setting myself up nicely in terms of being enjoyable and calming. So, with everything said out of the way–I’m hoping to bring Mokeys to the doggo place tomorrow and do some art with a friend although I don’t feel that I deserve it because I haven’t done my schoolwork but maybe that list soon will help.

Thank you for reading.

I also want to get more involved again on WordPress. Sigh. I’ll try my best and call it an evening. 🙂 ❤ Until the end!! ❤ ❤ ❤


Song a day THUMB

Song choice:

“Low” by Greyson Chance

Warnings:

None!

Video:

Chosen lyrics:

“I am lost and I don’t know where to go no more
I’ve been hurt but I’ve never been hurt this much before
I feel lonely, lonely, lonely traveling down this road
They say through time I’ll find some healing but the clock goes slow
I didn’t know that I could get this low
And I, and I don’t know where to go
And I, and I, know, know
I see a dark reflection in my dashboard
Don’t even know where I’m driving to anymore
I think about us back together someday
What you doing this Sunday?
I needed space so I left home
But now I’m desperate for the things I know
Like how you made me laugh on a bad day
Where are you now, I need you babe
And I don’t know where to go
Remember all the days when we were so young
Riding top down in the city that I used to love
I hear those words you said when you were shitfaced
Told me to stop playing all those games
But I wasn’t then, and I’m not now
Didn’t know how to feel when you broke me down
I needed time to move around without you
But I think I’m ready to hear “I love you” “

My meaning:

As you can tell, it’s mainly about a relationship, probably a romantic one but it can be applied more generally, too, I think. I haven’t been in a romantic relationship for nearly the last decade so I don’t relate to that all that much but this song is very soothing and I’ve enjoyed his work before and his voice has matured just SO MUCH and I think he’s a terrific artist.

It interestingly has that same concept about loneliness that Demi Lovato mentions in her newest song “Sober” (which I will one day this month cover here). But I enjoy the descriptions and how I can visualize them in my mind and how I can relate to driving around and not knowing where to go or who I am entirely. I like that about this song, there’s a community, a unity, in it and I think it deserves more attention than what it’s getting.

I was almost going to listen to a different song for the background music of this post but I’m glad I chose this one. It made today’s post a little lighter in spite of all the stress and change I’m currently facing. So that’s a major plus!!

Okay, time for photos! (And I hope my spacing later in this post isn’t too messed up because the block quote kinda fucked it all up!! :/)

 

Chosen emoticon:

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Because these spacing issues are bugging the shit out of me.


So here’s the traditional WWRRM thumb even though the vent portion came first. I don’t know, just bear with me on this jumbled and chaotic post because nothing is doing what I want it to. Fucking spacing!!

#WWRRM THUMB(1)

**NEW blog layout photos**

Header:

This shot is from the shoot I did on Friday but wasn’t able to share right away and may have to be postponed until the end of the month (or at least past the 15th). 1/4 through the shoot my camera didn’t want to focus on the peacock necklace and the dish so I shot with what I had which was a bunch of bokeh. This is the original first below 🙂

 

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And this is the cropped portion that appears behind “Recovery to Wellness”:

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And this is the new photo from a sunset shoot I did at the start of July (and got plenty of mosquito bites on my legs from) that is featured as the text background on my blog:

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And here is the cropped version that shows up in the background (or, it’s supposed to, but I think the smaller portion that is actually a part of the background is the top left of the image above. It’s like a tiny part of the sky–somewhere along the pink I believe):

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And now, final part!!


Day #4’s black&white photograph (as mostly today was a battle of trying to do schoolwork and everything):

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What I find especially cool about this photograph is that the black bar showed up as this is a photo of my laptop screen, and although I shot in color, I feel the black&white really works for this piece and the black bar is especially spooky and eerie in terms of the content (cancer) of this course. 🙂

Let me know if you’d like to see more of the shots that came from this shoot as well. ❤

Hope you made it through this post!! I know it was a lot. Thanks for reading. ❤ ❤ ❤ xxxx

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