I Want To Be A Role Model, But I’m Only Human | SADIA2 | #WWRRM

Chosen black&white photograph of Day #5 will be at the bottom, PLUS a BONUS photo!! 🙂

Enjoy!!!

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Song choice:

Sober by Demi Lovato

Warnings:

Substance use, relapse, suicidal ideation

Video:

Chosen lyrics:

“I got no excuses

For all of these goodbyes

Call me when it’s over

‘Cause I’m dying inside

Wake me when the shakes are gone
And the cold sweats disappear
Call me when it’s over
And myself has reappeared

I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know why
I do it every, every, every time
It’s only when I’m lonely

Sometimes I just wanna cave
And I don’t wanna fight
I try and I try and I try and I try and I try
Just hold me, I’m lonely

Momma, I’m so sorry, I’m not sober anymore
And Daddy, please forgive me for the drinks spilled on the floor
To the ones who never left me
We’ve been down this road before
I’m so sorry, I’m not sober anymore

And I’m sorry for the fans I lost
Who watched me fall again
I wanna be a role model
But I’m only human

I’m sorry that I’m here again
I promise I’ll get help
It wasn’t my intention
I’m sorry to myself….”

My Meaning:

Again, the spacing is a little fucked up but we’ll work with it. I actually really adore this slow song because there’s a familiarity and a community within it. It’s markedly different than the other songs Demi’s done before in her career and she is such an advocate for mental health awareness and the trials of substance use disorders and I am really, really glad she is still with us.

I cannot begin to imagine the immense strength it takes for her and others struggling with these issues to stand tall, proud and push onwards towards recovery each and every single moment and minute of the day.

It’s difficult for all of us when we relapse–or even when we lapse. This song is being truthful and honest in struggling and slipping up. It is so, so, so important for us to recognize that we ARE only human and that we won’t always be happy every minute of the day and that the things we struggle with have the capability to knock us down whenever they can–and that this life is still so very much worth living.

So, hold your lights up high as you sway to the beat of this song. And know that you are not alone in this audience. You are never alone at all. I know it might be easier to let the darkness win, but you matter so very, very much and you can get through this difficult time to shine like a rainbow lighthouse for hundreds of others. It is a power to not hold lightly (no pun intended), and I hope that you choose to hold it either way, for your sake and for the thousands of others who watch silently by your side.

You can inspire thousands by the choices you make each and every day. If only you are to turn on the light and raise your voice up high.

I believe in you. ❤ ❤ ❤

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Photo submission: Day #5 out of 31.

I brought Mokeys to doggy playtime today and brought my camera along so I could take pictures for today’s due date! I chose two into black&white from the original color and I think they both rock it well. There was a German shepherd puppy 4.5 months old named Drax playing with Mokeys for a long while and then this black&white doggo Gracie. I found their facial expressions in this shot to be a great depiction of the hour there! Ahaha. I forget what the little guy’s name is XD The little guy was totally just taking advantage of the situation though, and you can just see Mokeys in the top corner sniffing at him XD

In the second photo, I took shots of Angelo the husky with one blue eye and with one brown eye. He was chilling in the kiddie play spaces. The color version REALLY pops, and I think it also rocks in black&white too. 🙂 Hence the bonus photograph of the day!

I hope that you enjoyed this post! I’m off to work on some kind of coursework schedule, plan for tomorrow, fill out my planner/journal/diary card/DBT-I homework and eat some yummy ice cream!! 🙂

Love to all of you! ❤ xxxx