After My #RealOCD Video


I only JUST now remembered I was supposed to write up a blog post following my video upload. Lol

Here’s my submission for 2018’s #RealOCD campaign founded by the International OCD Foundation (IOCDF):

I included a photo of myself in the thumbnail from a summer shoot that I did this year 🙂

It’s actually a decently short video (for my standards) being 10 minutes long and just discussing what some of my experiences have been with OCD on self-harm and suicide obsessions that have expanded into secondary depression and now borderline tendencies. :3

I filmed four takes of the video, the first video being 2 minutes long and the third four minutes long, or something like that. I filmed two 10 minute length ones and wound up using my final piece as the chosen and lightly edited video.

I edited around 7p and fixed up the rest of the thumbnail until about 8:30p (more detail can be found on my Twitter account if you’re interested in a cohesive time rundown) and then uploaded it online by 9p.

I didn’t trigger myself which is awesome and I did film another video for an article read out that I’ve also added my own commentary towards so that’s neat, too.

I filmed with really nice lighting as well and strangely enough although my back light was on in the video and didn’t seem to contribute much, when I turned it off the video got a lot darker, so it actually was helping after all!

It’s 10:30EST now, so I have to go to sleep, but I’m pretty happy with how things turned out. More coursework tomorrow, some art and hopefully some reading and such and I’ll be back around next time.

Much love and light to you guys!

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Before My #RealOCD Video

Okay, so it’s been a long time since I’ve actually, fully and officially, blogged, so I thought this would be the perfect time to do so!

Today ends #OCDAwarenessWeek and I just found out yesterday that an old mental health channel that I watch on Youtube (Kat at Shalom Aleichem (who also incidentally has a WordPress blog that you can find on her channel too!)) made a video submission for it which inspired me to look further into it and decide to make my OWN video, too!

It’s going to be a 5 minute max (filming for 10 mins, 5 edited down) video and I’m going to film it soon after I write this post. 🙂 I figured having some more structure around what I want to say to continue to prepare for it and then how I’m feeling afterwards would help and give me some guidance before things get too out of control and I wind up ruminating in an unhealthy way.

So, I have my two little pages, the lights on in my room, ready to film soon, but I wanted to say a few extra things before I film as it won’t have my usual ramblings in it!

So first, I’m wearing my OCD awareness t-shirt as it’s ever so fitting for this video, my hair is wet since I just took a shower about 45 minutes ago, I am presentable and prepared to film, while also a little nervous, not gonna lie! I think I will film a couple other article videos right after mainly for 2017 articles (as I’m super behind in that and have been thinking of catching up for ages now!) And then maybe film a couple of art/Inktober submissions later tonight, too. 🙂

Because I’ve structured what I want to say already I think it should go okay, and then my plan is to edit it right after in Pinnacle and upload it tonight as well! I’m working on the thumbnail using Canva and have to figure out a little more if my submission will just show up under the hashtag or if I have to tinker with it more personally. Not sure.

I also have to fill out my planner more for today and then jump back into coursework with a confusing article I have the lucky chance in presenting on Tuesday, re-reading the article, writing my blog post about it and also working on doing some biology coursework.

So, yeah.

I think I’m more ready now… I also have to work on some ARTICLES this weekend, too. So many things, so many things indeed.

Well, I’m going to film in just another moment! Wish me luck and I will welcome you all again in the ‘After’ version of this blog post! Maybe I’ll have found a fitting title as well! Fingers crossed!!!

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