I’m normally a pretty easily inspired kind of person. Sometimes when reviewing and reading over coursework I’d get my wheels turning for related fanfics or drawing ideas. Song lyrics are a major source of inspiration for me and I’ve often used them to begin my articles for the Mass Media or write other chapters of fanfic or even just playing in the background for when I’m creating a collage or reorganizing my room.
But I don’t often, or at least I didn’t think I did, get uninspired and unmotivated. However, the sluggish past 3 days have proved difficult to bear because of this.
I think it’s a stark contrast to how things were going for me on Friday: Friday I was inspired and motivated, goal oriented and in charge. I was completing various new thumbs in part for my blog, thinking of the ideas I had in store for the long weekend for my very blog, in writing vibes mode for fanfics, and really ready and roaring to go.
Saturday I also completed more thumbs for my blog and was productive and engaged up until I had my family therapy appointment with June.
Then once I got home from that, after about an hour, I just dissolved into goop and fell asleep for a long 3 hours. After that I wasn’t as peppy, even though my stomach was full and I was still luckily tired enough to head back to sleep a few hours later.
By Sunday, I was continuing the spiel of lack of motivation. I felt like I couldn’t write, I couldn’t really art and I was void of ideas and ways to keep myself busy. I fell asleep again in the afternoon and after waking up, I played some music for about 3 hours while I decided to work on reorganizing my room (I wound up focusing exclusively on my desktop and inside my desk drawer) and then, in an effort to dust off my dreams and inspirations, I decided to completely redecorate my desk as well.
[Insert new update: I just took a bunch of photos of my newly decorated desk, desk drawer and one my newer boxes that I’ve dedicated for all the stationery that was once inside my desk. Having taken these photos I feel more refreshed and more inspired, even if I didn’t have an image of the ‘before’ shots. 😛 It was a mess before though and I’ll add notes as to how it’s different as I show you guys the images here!]
I’m basically only played 2 songs when I was redecorating yesterday but it was refreshing and a way of changing the environment around me in hopes to change the environment around my thoughts. I can actually utilize my desk far better now than before, which is definitely an improvement. I forgot all the little things I have and what they meant to me and what memories they evoke from my earlier days in recovery, so that was lovely. I guess we just get so used to looking at the same thing every day, day in and day out, that we forget to actually SEE it, you know? So it was nice to break away from that and appreciate all the little things.
And of course, the big reveal:
So, to describe what’s new and different on my desk now:
- The pocket watch photo in the gold frame used to be on the left side of the desk, where the lotions are.
- The silver photo frame features an old photograph I did at school that I set up to be vertical and will feature a NEWER photo soon. 🙂
- I put out 3 of 4 of my new lotions on the edge of my desk
- I’ve added a few new books that I want to read behind the 3 other books so that there’s easier access and it’s harder for me to be ignoring how much I want to really get back into reading. 😛
- I changed the message on my light box! (More on that below)
- I now have a lot more open space on my desk itself so I can use it more as an art station, journaling station and filming/Internet work space.
Now, for the close-ups:
Additionally, you get another little look around my desk with what’s in the vicinity: My Christmas Groot, a few stress balls, a candle holder that I’m using to hold a few various items like bubbles and stickers I made a few years ago, a bottle of beaded hearts which I hope to create some bracelets out of, a little round holder that I plan to repaint and is a throw back to when I was at Unit Z one of the last last times. The bottom inside is dark with silver glitter to represent the night sky and the top half is painted yellow with silver glitter to represent the daylight. 🙂
Next up, some jewelry and then to the right!
Now, we can move into the INSIDE of the desk!! I completely repurposed this section. Initially it was housing almost all of my stationery (minus the yellow ‘Be Awesome Today’ box I have under my desk which has more stationery in it) which I’ve since moved into a DIFFERENT box and now is housing instead all the things I need to remind me of my projects which, so far, you guys are in the dark about, but that I will be discussing shortly in time!! (That’s what all the thumbs were about and I believe this week, for sure, I think, I’ll be able to share that)
Then of course, there’s my swept together blank space on the floor:
Naturally, having moved my stationery from my desk, this is where they are now being housed:
And that is alllllll I have to show you for that!
This became more of a project-like post than I initially intended but being able to take pictures of my new areas makes me feel more inspired and a lot more motivated and intrigued by everything.
I have to go eat dinner momentarily, but I want to just update a little further by what posts I’m hoping to be publishing within the next week and even months of my newly acquired time off:
- All about my projects (w/ thumbs!)
- Life updates
- Song a Day’s
- My Fanfics Part 2
- Old/a couple new articles
- Book reviews
- Film reviews
Annnnnnd, I can’t think of anything else! But yeah, that should keep me busy for a while.
What kinds of things would YOU like to see on my blog? Let me know in the comments down below!
It was actually quite fun and busy-making talking to you guys. 🙂 I hope that you enjoyed this post!
With love and much light! ❤ ❤ ❤
PS This post was brought to you by the background music of “Brave” by Sara Bareilles