#SummerComer #PoetryChallenge Entry #2 | she knew of what could be.

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This is the second week we are bearing witness to this thumb. Hope it doesn’t get boring as more time goes by! 😉

Hi there! I’m going to keep this short so we have time to stare and admire the poem for this week, ahaha!!

If you want to see the Rules to this challenge fledged out here you can! Or stay tuned to the next little bit where I will do a quick crash course about them. Or, even better, check out this week’s entry into the challenge and then go back later to see the first week’s poem! Dun dun dunnnn. 😀

QUICK: WHAT ARE THE RULES?

  • each post begins with the thumb above
  • each poem will be individually titled and labeled by the entry number in both the piece itself (at the end) and in the title
  • each post will include any background music used to “set the mood” which will be listed at the end of the entry
  • each poem loosely exists within the context of summer but is not strictly limited in constructing that imagery. I.e. it’s a summer project but may venture outside of that topic/theme-wise. 🙂
  • the goal: one poem each week from the end of May to the start of September under the hashtag: #SummerComer

And, that’s it!

Ready? I hope so!!


she knew of what could be.

somewhere down the

old,

familiar road:

 

she dreamed into the clouds

of the big, blue sky

and the stars trickled down their

light onto her shoulders,

picked her up by the arms

and cradled her strong,

nestling into her full cheeks,

gracing a smile upon her lips.

 

she wore makeup etched within the

lines of her face–

mascara that made lashes sweep,

like billowing wind at the oceanfront,

eyeliner that opened up the green

of her eyes,

making them dazzle and pop,

and the lip gloss that she wore

sparkling on her lips,

glistened like the sun’s rays

through the gaps of a shady tree.

She wore blush that

decorated her face like those

fairy lights that she loved to set up

across her bedroom’s walls,

giving birth to a sweetness running so

deep in her veins that she was

practically diabetic.

A pop of color, the blush was,

across her pale-toned

flesh.

 

Her long, brown hair fell in waves,

curls abounding,

frizz kept at bay.

 

Her eyeshadow screamed of a thousand

suns, the solar system colliding across

her eyelids,

spinning and twirling with their own

gravitational pull.

Colorful would be an understatement,

but she rocked it well.

She rocked it.

 

And somewhere behind her green eyes,

lay dreams she had yet to dream,

hopes she had yet to unveil,

a spark for life that had yet

to encounter her form of consciousness.

 

she smiled at the sky,

for what was and what could be,

and as she blinked away the shadows,

the darkness that dared to cling to her

broken flesh,

she did so with peace in her heart,

and soul in her breast.

 

she was going to make it far.

 

she was going to be the sun.

 

she was going to be enough.

 

she was.

 

she was.

 

she was.

 

she knew it then

as much as she knew it today.

 

and over and over,

she would sway on her feet,

but remain standing.

 

because she was a wave that could not

be broken,

she was a spirit that could not

sail freer,

she was a force of nature.

 

she was.

 

she was.

 

she was.

 

and every day,

every day

she proved to herself

that she’d be there.

 

she’d be there.

 

and next time,

they wouldn’t dare to

dampen her fire.

 

Technical information about the poem:

Entry #2: #SummerComer

Written: 5/28/2020

Background music: “After the Storm” by Mumford & Sons


So, if you follow me on Twitter you got a live action of all my anger and frustrations with learning this new editor and wishing to rage quit SEVERAL times over the 45 minute span I was trying to quickly get this poem up by. Sigh, yeah. About that….

Thank you so much for reading though, and let me know if there are prompts, requests or themes you’d like to see me cover!! 🙂 (Also, are there good guides about how to get used to/learn the new editor? I clearly need to read it!! XD) Leave me a comment down below and I’ll get back to you as soon as I can. Finally, something a little more productive out of my week, ahaha.

And, about the poem itself: it kinda all came together well and I enjoyed describing things within it and I hope that you enjoyed it, too! 🙂 There are definitely some parts that stick out to me the most. =^_^=

Sending you all light and love.

#SummerComer #PoetryChallenge | Rules and Entry #1: (Thanks) To the Music in Her Soul

Welcome to the #SummerComer thumb and blog post poetry challenge!! All photographs by me and the thumb itself was made on the ever so lovely Canva! 🙂

Why, hello there!!!

Welcome back to another blog post on my WordPress account! 😀 This one is especially nice as I’m bringing to you all an idea that I got inspired by this author’s blog post (Jason A Muckley) which was also inspired by this author’s blog post (Brooke Cutler) .

Basically (and I had to switch back to the Classic Editor I know and love because the top bar was missing in the new block editor and I have no idea how to get it back nor do I have the patience for that level of fuckery right now, PLUS we just temporarily lost power so now I feel like I’m racing against the clock, ahahha, sad.) I will layout the outline of each of their respective challenges here:

  1. Brooke’s challenge was to come up with a new poem every day in May using the word “darling”
  2. Jason was then inspired to create his own type of challenge. His involves (and you should totally check them both out, by the way!) writing a new poem every day from May 10th (Mother’s Day) until June 20 (first day of summer) all about summer themed activities and going-on’s. He then came up with a hashtag for the event calling it #FunInTheSun

Now here’s where I come in:

My challenge, inspired by Jason’s, is to create a new poem each week (just one!) starting from this week (originally yesterday, but today is still the first week for me, I’m going on the assumption that Sunday’s are the starts of the week rather than Monday’s) May 22nd 2020 — September 4th 2020 where the theme will be summer but a little looser so it can apply to other topics or happenings that relate beyond summer itself. 🙂 I am calling this series: #SummerComer

So, essentially, I’m going to be doing a creative poem each week starting now until the start of September! Whoooo!!!

If you have any ideas or prompts or things YOU’D like to see me cover, leave them all down below! The layout for this series is as follows:

  • each post will start with the thumb above
  • each poem will be individually titled and labeled by the entry number in both the piece itself (at the end) and in the title
  • each post will include any background music used to “set the mood”. I may sometimes use the Calm App, potentially, and will credit that as sees fit.

That said, here is this week’s first poem:

 


(Thanks) To the Music in Her Soul

 

She heard the lyrics

Of the song within her soul,

Heard the pitch,

Heard the beat,

As she strolled along the shore.

 

She swayed her hips,

Rounded and pure,

Her shoulders knocking back

Moving with the music.

 

She wore a peaceful smile

Upon her full cheeks,

And the pink lip gloss

On her lips

Sparkled in the setting sun.

 

She was aglow with light,

As it wafted down from the large,

Fluffy white clouds.

 

It parted through the shadows locked

Behind her brown eyes,

And it swept away the doubts

And insecurities that would cling to her skin

Late at night.

 

It washed over her like the waves

Lapping at her bare feet,

Chilly in the summer wind

Yet comforting all the same.

 

The scent of the ocean

Flocked over her,

And she dared to break out into song,

Verbalizing the words that had haunted

Her dreams for days.

 

She did this,

Serenely,

As the sun departed behind the hills

Far, far away

As the beach was empty save for a few

Passing gulls

 

And when she left that day,

When she, too, departed from the world,

She did so with a blissful heart

And a song that felt richer

Than it had ever been before.

 

(Technical information about the poem:

Entry #1: #SummerComer

Written: 5/23/20

Background music: “Happier” by Marshmello ft. Bastille)


 

Annnnnd, that’s it!! Thank you so much for reading!! I hope that this can be something neat to look forward to each week on this blog and that you can be inspired in some way by it and hell, maybe someone else will be inspired and continue the challenge-inception spiral! Ahaha.

I will have more blog posts coming in the future.

Thanks again!!

Best! ❤ ❤ ❤ xxx

Hello to A Mid-May 2020 Life Update

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Why hello there!!

I saw on Twitter that WordPress is changing to the newest editor (I’ve always been using the classic mode that I encountered when I first joined the site in May 2016 (which reminds me of another blog post I forgot about that I want to do, actually :O)) but this new one is… okay. I’ll get used to it in time, I imagine and if I struggle, there will be the classic block option that I can tinker with instead. 🙂

Any who, that’s not entirely what this post is going to be about.

I wanted to actually talk to you guys one on one again, as it’s been a while since my last post and I haven’t been on the blog too much this last week and I have PLENTY to update you guys on in regular old life update fashion. So, for the new things and also some of the old….


If you missed my last post  where I talk about some of what I’ll be doing for the NAMI Walks Your Way Virtual Event on Saturday, May 30th from 11:00a- 1:30p EST (a live stream where I’ll interact with you guys on Youtube, you can donate if you’d like (all the money is going directly to NAMI), you can ask me questions and I’ll talk about my experiences and my involvement with NAMI and my recovery as well as produce some artwork that you’ll be able to see as I make it) I have a small update for it!

Tomorrow, Friday May 22nd 2020 at 3:00p EST I am going live for about an hour on my Youtube channel, RecoverytoWellness  to just experiment with the live streaming service so that I work out any kinks before the big event next Saturday! 😀 (Working with this Editor and it hates my trying to link things, grrr.)

For tomorrow’s stream, which I will link out on my Twitter (you can find me under RecoveryRaquel), I will be chatting with you peeps if you happen to stop by because I probably won’t be up to much else on my own, ahhaha. I am planning to film outside on my back porch so that should be especially nice! 😀

Additionally and relatedly, I am choosing to make it a daily goal of mine this summer to spend at least 1 hour a day outside. I decided to start doing this just this past Saturday and then I was thinking up how I should get a blanket for myself to use purely for outdoors purposes and all the different places I could go with it (parks, beaches, small areas nearby) and I also found out that if you put the blanket or article of clothing into the dryer for 15 minutes, the heat kills any ticks that may be on it. Then you can plop it into the washing machine and then back into the dryer but in the wash, they don’t die because they thrive in dark, moist places, so there ya, something new to learn!

This led me to go to Target on Sunday, braving the quarantine for reals, and I did find a very nice and soft light gray blanket ($15!) but I’m kinda falling more and more in love with it sooooo I’m not entirely certain that it’ll become my outdoor blanket. I also got a few books while I was at Target and a couple of stationery gel pen packs (which I’ve been utilizing already since).

Hmmm, what else is new?

I’ve been writing fan fiction a lot lately. I finally have another article for my column on The Oddball Magazine  (Recovery Home) that I wrote up today, actually, during Journal group at Passages (my day program). I will be typing this up tomorrow, fact checking it a little and then linking or naming some links within it before I send it off completely.

Speaking of Passages, I am going to be transitioning out of there and my last day will be Thursday June 4th. That’s going to be interesting. I’ve decided because we’re in very strange times, that I’ll be writing letters and sending them to the building so that the therapists there can re-envelope them and send them to some of my peers that I plan to write letters of farewell to. I have about 10 peers that I want to do this with. Then I have to do the letters for the staff/therapists too. I’ll be doing quite a bit of writing for the next couple of weeks in preparation for this, basically.

It feels really weird to be discharging (and technically, I still have to get fully cleared for this to commence) but yeah, it’s kinda scary BUT also really good and really nice. I wish quarantine wasn’t going on because I definitely would like a farewell party, ahaha. I’m going to ask if there’s some kind of contingency plan I can do when the quarantine is over where I could return just for a goodbye, kinda thing, you know?

As of late, I haven’t been able to complete a lot of the groups and I only go to the ones in the afternoon. And I just haven’t been getting as much out of it and I was already going to end in May anyways but yeah, June 4th will be it. Weird. But exciting. And sad. And I’m not entirely sure where I’m going to find the community of validation and nonjudgmental support, but I’m hoping to find some of these characteristics in support groups I enter and online communities that I find for myself, like blogs and videos and stuff. I’m hoping too, that with this mental health focused area out of my life that I can return to mental health related blogs/bloggers and get my dose of it that way. I haven’t done that since I’ve been going to program in 2018, so it would be especially nice. (HINT: If you have anyone you think I should follow or you want to leave their info down below, feel free to do so!!)

I’m also thinking, as of today, that I’ll want to do some other type of weekly blogging where I choose on Sunday a topic to focus on for the week, I pool resources like blog sites and Youtube videos on the topic and then I write a response blog post about what I learned, if anything, from it all. I think that’d be neat and I’d like to get back into looking at different types of research-like article stuff. I don’t know, I think it’d be cool.

The wonderful world of WordPress

Speaking of blogging… I have these ideas going forwards:

  1. Continuing my Tracking Practices (this will probably come in next week, and I have a follow-up point to this later! Also, a simpler post is becoming lengthy and annoying with this new Editor!! Ugh!)
  2. Film Review Friday’s (I am planning to have one up for tomorrow)
  3. Fan fiction related
  4. Promoting others works
  5. Life Updates
  6. Research based/knowledge stuff from the thing I mentioned earlier (okay, tired brain is really here now, awesome, great. )
  7. Book reviews!!
  8. SummerComer (NEW, CHECK BACK TOMORROW)
  9. Anniversary posts/awards and tags
  10. that’s all I can think of right now

I have PLENTY of Youtube channel ideas going forwards too.

But the good and sad news from the first tracking post is that I completed my Calm the Chaos journal yesterday!!! I am now moving onto my next one.

I’ve also been ordering and looking at books a lot lately. I am in progress of reading a nonfic book and I didn’t get the chance to read AT ALL today but maybe I can squeeze in a couple of pages. I’m excited for the books I have already gotten and the ones that are heading to me next! 🙂

I’ve already gotten quite a tan already from the week I’ve been outside ahaha. I am currently listening to music and I have to make time soon to download new songs to my iPod. The other thing, which I will be posting tomorrow, so two posts tomorrow, will just be this: SummerComer. That’s all you get for clues. 😉

Oh, I’ve been making some origami stuff lately too, mainly paper frogs and paper stars.

My work, Amaryllis, schedule has changed. Instead of working Tuesday’s and Saturday’s I’m NOW working Monday’s and Saturday’s. So that’s something.


Okay, sorry, but I have to cut this post short. It’s almost 10p and I’m literally falling asleep right now ahaha. I will see you all fresh in the morning. Good luck and do leave me your thoughts somewhere down below!

This post was powered by: “Circles” by Post Malone ❤ 😀

Thank you for reading!!!

xxx

PS I just remembered: I’m hoping to be structuring my time more in the future and setting SMART goals monthly, weekly and daily! Yay!

Join Me in a National Day of Hope | #NAMIWalksYourWay Virtual Event

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Join me on my Youtube channel on this date/time slot and we’ll have some fun!! See more information in this post down below! ❤ xxx Thumb revamped 5/14/2020


Hello and welcome back to my blog!!!

I have some exciting news to share with you all today, and I apologize for the fact that this post is coming at you guys a bit later than I had originally planned. I’ve been wanting to share this for over a week, but this past week has been tough for me mentally as I’ve been struggling with some ruthless depressive symptoms.

I’ve been sleeping A LOT more than usual (as opposed to last week where I was awake throughout the day, motivated a lot of the time, creativity was pouring out of me and I was interacting with other blogs and writing up a bunch of posts too) and have just been face to face with a lot of lack of motivation, lack of energy and lack of overall interest. Today and yesterday I’m beginning to come out of it, oscillating back and forth if nothing else, and I’m trying to make the most out of it in the best way I know how.

So, really, what I had to do was revamp this blog post! Something new, something fresh, something without old tied knots of forgotten wishes and dried up dreams, something that wasn’t attached to old feelings and past regrets, something refreshing and spontaneous mixed in with creativity and fun colors!

Thus, here we are. ❤

NAMIWalks THUMB 2 = 5.14.20

I am running my OWN TEAM that YOU can join here:

RecoverytoWellness Beacons Team Page

If you would like further information on who I am, what I’m about and more of my own story, you can check out my individual page here and donate either to my singular page or donate to the team page itself:

My Participant Page

Either way, ALL the money raised is going DIRECTLY to NAMI Massachusetts. I will get 0% of the money I gather, so just remember that! If you want to donate, please do, or if you can spread around the message, that works too. If you’d like to join my team, feel free to sign up, or if you’d rather join or donate to other people’s teams/pages, you can do that, too!

Ultimately, the NAMI Walks Your Way MA event is going virtual this year because of the state of the world and the pandemic which opens up the ways we can all participate in this national day of raising mental health awareness for the variety of conditions that encompasses by spreading hope, fun and light to topics society so very often wants us to hide and be ashamed of.

This is OUR DAY to make a difference, our day to celebrate each other and all of our successes, celebrate our triumphs and celebrate one another. I am very excited for it!

I still have yet to completely decide if I want to take up more of the day (Saturday May 30th 2020) for the event by calling off my work shift at Amaryllis or if I want to still attend work that day after the event (which is why I’ve tentatively named the event occurring for me between 11:00a and 1:30p EST).

That’s actually, probably, important:

This event is running from 11a – 1:30p EST

I will be doing a:

Youtube Live Stream on my channel (RecoverytoWellness)

on the day of the walk, to help spread mental health awareness, share my recovery story, ANSWER ANY QUESTIONS YOU HAVE, and share artwork that I will be creating during that time.

I am thinking I will do:

– Some origami (from watching tutorials on my iPod)

– Some painting/water coloring (new pieces or old, possibly)

– Some coloring

– Some creative writing or journaling if the Muse participates willingly

– Some photography or outside time (depending on the weather!)

– Some scrapbooking

– Beaded bracelets

– and possibly a little more!!

 

I NEED YOUR HELP!! THUMB 3 - 5.14.20

RecoveryRaquel is my Twitter handle; RecoverytoWellness is my WordPress and Youtube channel!

I would like for you to send me in some of your questions, ideas, topics or things you’d like to see me discuss! I can talk freely about my journey and what treatment has been like for me and why advocacy is such a big part of where I am, where I’ve been and where I’m going!

But first,

I need you to share this post! I need you to spread the word as LARGE and FAR as possible! Share on social media, donate even the smallest bit to my page for the NAMI Walk, interact with me, leave me your thoughts and questions, and be there with me during the support of the walk on Saturday, May 30th 2020 11:00a-1:30p EST!!

My personal page’s goal was to reach $175 and my team’s page goal is to reach $250, which we’re NEARLY there at so far being at $200. I put in some money towards the cause, myself, too. I will probably talk more about NAMI and how it’s supported me in my recovery, life and advocacy on the day of the walk, too. We are so close to reaching our goal and I KNOW we can do it!! If you donate at all, I will send you a personalized thank you message! Just leave me your contact info or email me at my public email address (which you can connect through my Contact page here on WordPress) or more simply at this email:

recoverytowellness@hotmail.com

All right, that is it for this post! If you have any further questions, comments or concerns, you know where to find me! Have an amazing May day and I hope to see you around again.

Thanks a bunch!!!!

❤ ❤ ❤ xxx

All thumbs in this post were made with the love and care of Canva. Thank you!! ❤

Film Review Friday: “Sharks of Lost Island” (2013)

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Chosen Film/Year:

“Sharks of Lost Island” (2013)


Movie Rating:

PG


Movie Length:

.45 minutes


Writer; Producer/Editor:

Alan Martin; Neil Gelinas


Product of:

National Geographic


Themes:

Nature, documentary, sharks, coral reefs, marine ecology, narration, underwater filming, oceans, the negative impacts of humanity, pollution, garbage, carbon/human footprint, community meetings, overuse of fishing for food production (altering the amount of fish left in the world), small islands, ocean voyage, drones, science nerds, passion, care, inspiration, activism, advocacy, pursuits of the good, dramatization, interview style filming.


Trigger Warnings:

“Crazy” comments, sadness and depressive triggers, guilt, bird death.


How I found it?

Disney+


Movie Summary:

This documentary follows a team of marine ecologists as they plunge deep into the ocean waters near the remote, and barely inhabited, Pitcairn Islands. The three main islands are miles away from New Zealand, small specks in the Pacific Ocean. They are called: Pitcairn, Henderson and Ducie islands. Deep within the waters are either pristine or well established and well nurtured coral reefs. Most of the islands have a roaring amount of sharks lurking underneath, which is a sign of immense health and nutrition for the coral reefs.

The documentary is composed of following the marine ecologists as they embark on finding ways to limit the detrimental hands and feet and existence of humanity and preserving the innocence of nature and the gifts that wildlife has within our lives on a day to day basis. The documentary hones in on how the overuse of fishing is slowly destroying the climate and the world, how fishing garbage can be found on one of the remote islands despite how far away they are, how humans influenced an island by bringing in Polynesian rats that destroyed the flightless bird population, how a harmful weed was killing off the birds, leaving their feathers sticky with its goop and slowly killing them and following a set of community members on Pitcairn to work to establish the islands as a marine reserve to help bring in the expenses of tourism and preserve the life that was threatened by the evils of humanity.

Set in interview-style commentaries, the scientists share their hopes, their excitement, their awareness and their newest discoveries with the world. While a bit over-dramatized at times, this documentary does a fine job on making its information clear to understand for the viewer and inciting care and activism to preserve what can be so that we don’t lose everything we love, care for and genuinely need remaining intact in this world and on this planet.


Cinematography & Style:

The cinematography in this documentary is pretty great, overall. There are some excellent transitions and landscape scenes that are time lapsed, gathering the use of sunlight well, filming underwater and stock shots of the boats or the scientists as they explored the islands on foot. There were interview-style voice-overs of the scientists, with images and sights to behold overlaying their words with shots in between of the scientists speaking themselves. There were cameramen shooting the scientists mostly while some of the scientists (Mike, for instance) had a hand-held camera that he shot in to give us more a “first-person” perspective. It’s a friendly documentary with great use of scenery and music to set the scene even further. Overall, I did wonder how much of the film was scripted versus not and how some of the narrations were over-dramatized and zoomed in at points that weren’t entirely necessary for the story or film (for instance, the whole drone issue, when it was flying and hyped up but then it got lost and what the point of that was to keep it in the documentary, the set-up overall of some scenes, the music, etc.)


Memorable Moments:

The most memorable moment for me is probably the carcasses of the birds on the beach of Ducie Island due to the weed that arrived and got its sticky goo all over their feathers. It was just so sad and awful. Another thing I remember is some of the features of the deep dives with the fish and the clear water and that difference when one of the islands with more human inhabitants was VERY murky and gritty in spite of the clear, pristine waters were like. It made me wonder how other islands and oceans are fairing with even more human garbage, pollution, etc. existing. I also found this documentary, probably because of the human involvement and the negatives of humanity it highlighted, to be a little depressing and saddening and made me feel a little helpless and hopeless. Yet, there are good news from this documentary at the VERY end of this review, which preserves some positive aspects of humanity and the power that we hold in strong numbers. ❤


Information Delivery:

Creative in nature. (Hah! Puns) It wasn’t overly scientific so I could understand what was going on and it was very user-friendly, so to speak. Having some idea of biology and environmental stuff is a plus and a neat way to see textbook information in the flesh and in progress. 🙂


My final thoughts:

The end of the movie definitely made me think a lot and I had wondered whether the villagers and people of Pitcairn were able to make the islands a marine reserve and the answer, which is below, made my heart warm and restored some of my faith in humanity (to be honest, I have a pretty good faith in humanity overall). I thought it was a pretty neat documentary even if it probably wouldn’t be something I watched again in full or got a WHOLE lot out of. It does make me want to help the environment by picking up trash in the community, so there’s that, at least. I wasn’t quite expecting the sadness to be experienced in this documentary so that also influenced by final score. I’d say it wasn’t bad overall and I’m definitely more intrigued to watch a few more documentaries but I think that’s also because I’m not ready for more in-depth plot lines from more creative mediums.


Recommendation Score:

6.5/10

 


BONUS Good News:

The islands were established as marine reserves, the largest in the world, in 2015.

 


 

Annnnnnd, you managed to make it to the very end of this review!! Thank you sooo much for stopping by, reading and if you can, leave me your thoughts or recommendations down below! I am set to have a few more posts up this week–despite the fact that I have to write them first, ahaha–so there’s that to look forward to! I’m mainly focusing on a NAMI Walks 2020 post (for Tu), a Tracking Part 2 post (W), a FRF for Fri and probably a couple others here and there.

I might do one about some SMART goals I have and life update type styles. Also one on fanfic and my social media links. I’ve decided to incorporate 5 days a week at least 30 minutes of blog interaction/commenting/liking a day and that is going super swell so far! I’m excited to do more today.

Also, this post took me FOREVER to do. I don’t know why but it was just super difficult for me to be motivated and inspired to get it done and out. In the end, especially the day I’m publishing it, I was very ruminative in my mind so it was extra hard to focus and I need to download some new music ’cause I’m just over all the same songs I’ve been listening to lately. So I really procrastinated a lot on this post and I also tried to challenge myself to upload and work on it even AFTER it’s Film Review Friday, hence why this is going up on a Mon. I have to challenge my rules more because sometimes they’re awfully shitty and unnecessary rules! (I found that having a couple of timers for like 20 mins finally got me to accomplish this post and publish it!!)

Any who, again, thank you for reading. I hope you enjoy my posts! Feel free to leave me a link or something to your own stuff if you’d especially like me to read and comment. Thanks again! ❤ ❤ ❤

 

Handwritten minimal notes: 4/29.2020;

Typed and written, added and edited: 5/7 & 5/11/2020

🙂

Welcome to My Tracking Systems Reception! | Part 1

Tracking THUMB = 5.7.20


Why hello there young Reader, and don’t you worry by the title because you don’t have to go very far!! I am bringing this special reception to YOU on this post, on my blog. My hope is that this post will inspire you in some manner or give you some further insight into how I do things to help track my moods, thoughts and behaviors many times daily, and some weekly, or at least to get some kind of daily/weekly blend that turns monthly, even, too.

So, sit back and enjoy the sights because this is the first time I’ve done photography in a very long time and it’s to show you guys all of my tracking objects with some examples tossed into the mix, too. A beautiful blend of narration (so to speak!) and photo visualization. Welcome aboard!! And, if you’re so kind, please leave me a comment at  the end of what step was YOUR favorite or what you’d like to see from me next or what type of tracking and engagement you do in your own life!

Let’s begin!!

**As of working on this post into the evening of May 7th, I’ve decided to section it off into 3 parts because there are 9 tracking systems so this will end the first part today and over the next two weeks I’ll write up and publish the last two parts. 🙂 Thanks for stopping by and hopefully you enjoy this read! 😀 I’ll see you at the end. ❤


OBJECT #1:

Calm the Chaos Journal

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Photo taken by me on May 7th 2020. ❤ I used my new large origami paper for the background. I tried to be fancy for these photos and got to use/share my paper stars, too!! Something to feast your eyes and look forwards to ahead from here! 🙂

Began: January 2020

From: My individual therapist from my day program, Passages. She wrote this note at the start of it:

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Contents & Set-Up: This journal begins with a necessary and optimistic promise of what the reasoning and meaning and purpose is lay hidden behind the idea and notoriety of this particular form of journaling. It’s a great journal to set about self-care goals and an assessment of the present day through a multitude of factors, with well-fitting spaces to write in, and a goal section for the following day ahead. The prompts are scattered well enough that it never becomes monotonous in the daily grind.

For instance, I will have photos in the visualization section for you all to get a sense of the journal, as well as laying it out deliberately and expertly here in written form.

On the “Today…” section there are questions regarding how self-care was performed by the Writer: sleep, bodily movement, something fun or pleasurable just for the Writer, taking time for meditation or reflection, ate nourishing food, went outside for fresh air and other.

Continuing on this section, is an act of kindness performed for someone else, the most memorable moment of the day for the Writer, and a small gratitude for the day.

On the “Tomorrow…” section there are 15 varying prompts that change every 5 days. Some of this variety may be seen in the photographs below. They are different little sections prompting: what goals you have for the day ahead, courageous conversations that need to be had, things to let go of, priorities, intentions, to-do’s, the day’s purpose, guiding mantras, etc.

Visualization Examples:

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Snapshot from early January 2020.

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Mid-February.

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Most recent, from last night.

 

How Much is Left: 1 Week’s worth of entries

This journal is made by: Nicola Ries Taggart

Estimated Price: $15.00

My Pitfalls: As with this object and many of my other Tracking Systems, I fell off tracking between the entirety of March, half of February and some of April 2020. I was able to restart from the present day rather than trying to go back and fill in old entries (meaning, if my last entry was 2/27, and I fell off until March 8th, I began again just onwards from March 8th). Sometimes if I was only a day behind I made the notation: “nd for next day” and carried on from there. So with my falling behind I wrote in it for the months of Jan (almost each day completely save for 3 days I missed), half of Feb, the end of March, half of April and all of May.

My Recommendation Score:

If you’re someone who wants to improve their level of self-care practices and be motivated and inspired to handle this level of tracking, I’d highly recommend it, if for little else than prioritizing the day ahead, embracing the successes of the day itself, and for a reference point/snapshot of the past to look back on and improve or replicate into the future.

My score?

7/10


OBJECT #2:

“Stay Magical” ~Daily Goal System

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A great sized stationery pad of goal setting wizardry!

Began: ~April 20th 2020

(A couple sheets covered multiple days for reading goals)

From: TJ Maxx

Setup: So at the very top of the pad of paper is the phrase “Stay Magical” with stars in a silvery rainbow surrounding it. At the middle of the bottom edge of the page is a white unicorn with rainbow hair (always nice). The first left box says “Your Dream Goal”, the bottom left says “Reach for the Stars” and the whole lined with boxes right side says “Make your wishes come true” with the ability for you to effectively check off steps as they are accomplished. 😀

Visualization Examples:

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This is today’s goal which is a lot more complicated and multi-faceted than most of my others. Some of the ones I’ve had include reading goals with set measurements (say 1/2 way through or read 20 pages) or have a good day at work by X means.

In this example I have said that I wanted to interact with blogging as well as do blogging which is a check for having been done. Read a book (not yet), and complete laundry (which I forgot about again).

In the other two sections I wrote little reminders to myself to help ease the transition of all the work I needed to do today or at least tried to do today and then on the right I added a general intention for my to-do’s.

How Much is Left: Just began; 80 sheets total, about 70 left.

Estimated Price: $5.00

Why Utilized? I began to utilize this new function when I created or recreated my Motivational Binder. In it I have a bunch of other tracking systems and it helped me to get my mind around factors I was trying to get back into, probably not surprisingly was returning and, in many ways, revamping my Tracking Processes. I started to do it the night before for the day ahead as a way to pronounce what I’d like to do the next day as per the encouragement and idea from my therapist, June. So, that’s what I’ve relatively been regularly doing, with some missed days here and there or goals that cannot quite be completed all at once or require a few extra days and ongoing maintenance to accomplish. 🙂

Pitfalls: Making more than one goal on it is a lot trickier to manage. I think I temporarily lost the reading one I had, that specific sheet, somewhere and now I can’t find it or figure out if it was the same one I found in the binder jacket or if it was an additional reading one. Damn. Also, sometimes it gets a little overwhelming or I miss tracking in other ways particularly on nights where I return home from work at Amaryllis. That is hard, too. I like to hand them up onto my whiteboard to pull it down again when I start my day and this helps, mentally, a bit, too.

Adding them to my Motivational Binder gets a little backlogged too because I have to hole punch them so I have a bunch at the moment that are loose and not yet inside my binder. 😛 However, it’s also the first working list/stationery pad that I’m utilizing more often than letting them sit in a box somewhere else in my room, ahaha.

My Recommendation Score:

7/10


OBJECT #3: (Final piece for today’s post, see adjusted title as this is now a 3 part series!!)

My Journal

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This is my current journal, it has a sparkly, glitter-y mess with bokeh and the phrase “Sparkle On” in script font. It took me forever to decide if I wanted to start the year with this one or a space panda or another journal from the stack I have in my room, ahaha.

Began: January 30th 2020

From: 120 sheet journal from Michael’s

Set-Up: This is a blank lined journal with a gray bookmark page holder. This is my first complete journal for the year 2020, with part of last year, maybe about 6 months worth fitted into my last journal. I do my best to complete this journal’s entries daily.

I write my therapy notes in this journal, I write my group notes from program in it, any time I need to make a little pro’s/con’s sheet, visualize something I need to work on and most often, about my day.

So I have this system within my systems of SotD’s which are Scores of the Day. On a scale of 0 to 10 I rate if my day was really shit and pants as a 0 (barely ever happens) and 10 being like upscale amazing, so good that I’m seeing rainbows and unicorns everywhere (which I have made a few times!!).

On average, I score an 8.

I decide these numbers based on my gut reaction to the question of how my day went. If the number 7 shows up more than 8, I write 7, or if I’m conflicted I’ll do a decimal point system (7.5 etc.).

Additionally, I hallmark this type of tracking the most in my planner–something I actually don’t think I’ve shared in a blog post before, at least the one that I’ve been using for 2019-2020. I have my 2020-2021 that will also be in a video soon but yeah, maybe I’ll include either a link or a photo to it when I get to that part of this blog post series (which is not today).

Anywho, back to the journal! I, OFFICIALLY, begin my journal with the day of the week, the month, day and year and then the time that I began writing. Then I move down and do my SotD and then I use these notations: TA for Today’s Accomplishments (sometimes, if I’ve fallen behind I’ll use YA for Yesterday’s Accomplishments or if it’s been a significantly long time from having fallen behind then I’ll just put the date of that day near it) and proceed in number format to write out my accomplishments and sometimes, although I’ve mostly discontinued it for the time being, I wrote out TN for Today’s Notes, like other thoughts or things to remind myself of from that day that don’t fit in as accomplishments. Phew! That was a lot, right?

Visualization Examples:

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Photo taken in May of 2020 of a day from April 2020.

And another little glimpse of me just saying stuff at the very end of the journal entry:

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I was particularly chatty at the end of this entry and feeling high maintenance for my tracking is just top-notch and a very me thing to happen. Ahaha.

How Much is Left: More than half.

Estimated Price: $5.00

Why Utilized? The best reason I have for doing this system is to keep and maintain, ideally daily, weekly then turning into monthly, a record of how I am doing. There’s something nice about quantifying an experience and getting out thoughts and feelings and, hell, sometimes behaviors, by tracking it down and looking back on it later.

True, I haven’t gotten to the part where I can look back on my journals and my writings and the things that come out of my skull and into my fingers and onto ink on paper, but, the biggest motivation I have behind it is to learn from what I wrote, have the power of perspective and to eventually, one day I SWEAR, make weekly catalogued video posts about them all. I don’t know, I just find it so fascinating to have a daily catalogue of my thoughts and how things were going and I think it really helps to mold my day together because if I don’t it’s almost like it didn’t happen, you know?

I want to film videos about them in the future, I still haven’t done it YET but I look forward to it. I wonder how I would structure that… hmm, I’d have to fiddle with it first,  I think. Maybe I’ll journal about it tonight, ahaha.

And in a lot of ways, this is like my handwritten journal that I can take stock of what I did that day, from the little accomplishments to the big ones, and it creates a record of some kind, maybe a little monotonous and needless to some people’s eyes but still a record all the same (although I don’t know how it would help anyone else out there, unless they wanted to visit my mind and what I valued in that day, ahaha). And in that record I can utilize all the things that I did even online that day that go into the log. 😀

Pitfalls: High-maintenance. It requires daily entries, me setting aside that time to do so, looking at my planner and my day and how/what I did hour by hour, scanned hour by hour more so, and what I’m thinking in that moment and just cataloguing my thoughts. Then if I get behind for a few days I have to go back and either skip them (which I hate doing) or just list them late and fill them in (which I try to do instead and will have to do over multiple mediums for this week). I personally like to start new days as new headings at the top and won’t fudge the timing very much if at all. Besides being somewhat high-maintenance though it does rely quite a bit on other tracking forms being completed so if I haven’t done that in multiple objects, then things get even shakier. Luckily this doesn’t happen TOO frequently.*

My Recommendation Score:

9/10


*To be honest, I’ve gotten so used to my tracking systems, some that I’ve been doing for over 2 years, that it really is just part of my regimen before I go to sleep at night. Some things will come and go, that’s for sure, journals especially, but overall it helps me. If not in the present moment then definitely as a reference point back in time or a future video or content creation later on, hence this blog post, to be honest.

So what do my other tracking objects consist of?

Well, you’ll have to wait and see…

 

 

Nah, I’ll tell ya!

But I’ll tell you in CODE! :O (If you know my tweets you may know these answers sooner)

P, ST, DC, 5YJ, H., M., RB: this last one is only weekly–so it only slightly counts and doesn’t make up the main 9 that I use (it’s also new!).

Above all though, thank you SO MUCH for reading.

I hope that you enjoyed this post and got some further insight into my mind and if nothing else, what works for ME! Going forwards I do see myself incorporating new tasks into my regimen or daily/weekly cataloguing. (Think bullet journal and I’m Awesome, Here’s Why journal, which I JUST got).

Thanks again!!!!

What do you do for tracking, if anything at all? How does it make you feel and what works best in your system? Has this post at all encouraged or inspired you in creating or adding to your system? Let me know! 😀

 

xxx ❤ ❤ ❤

PS Who wants to bet that Twitter fucks up my main image for this post? XD

PPS You can also bet that tonight I’ll be jotting down the way I structured this post for future reference into the next week’s parts! ^_^

Stop making a taboo about having periods

A great post with a perfect balance between images and text. A message we all need to rejoice in more and find comfort and solace in our shared experiences. Give it a go! 🙂 ❤ xxx

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Hey lovelies 💕,

I just have to write this blog post because I feel bad these days and it’s also important to raise awareness about it. I’m going to talk about period pain and periods in general. I already talked about it one day. I don’t understand why we don’t talk more about it and it is considered still a taboo when it’s something natural. I think we have to talk more about it so that women don’t feel alone while suffering each month from heavy pain, blood, mood swings and everything which comes with having our periods. Men often say women get crazy when their period is coming well we aren’t crazy, our homones are doing that work. I find it always so disgusting when people say that like we like to be completely mad. If they would suffer from it, they wouldn’t say that because then…

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Film Review Friday: “Jane Goodall: The Hope” (2020)

Film Review THUMB


Chosen Film/Year:

“Jane Goodall: The Hope” (2020)


Movie Rating:

TV 14


Movie Length:

1 hour & 28 minutes


Directors/Producers:

Elizabeth Leiter & Kimberly Woodard;

Lucky 8 TV & National Geographic.


Themes:

Activism; humanity; biology; chimpanzees; rescue; advocacy; love and kindness; inspiration; younger generations; community; teamwork; hope; humanitarianism; projects; conferences.


Trigger Warnings:

Mild substance use (alcohol)


How I found it?

Disney+


Movie Summary:

This documentary follows Jane Goodall, the chimpanzee scientist who observed the animals in the wild when she was young and in Africa, and her journey towards finding a footing in the activism sector and speaking out for those animals that she cared so much about and wanted to fight for and give a voice to them and others. This documentary follows her and the ins and outs of her story, where she came from, where she wants to continue going and how she hopes she’s making a positive impact not only on the planet but with the younger generation. She has multiple projects, “Shoots and Roots” as one for instance, and speaking opportunities that she literally travels worldwide for. She is a powerhouse woman built on the foundations of honesty, passion, determination, fight, spirit and perseverance. With a movie so visually pleasing and heartwarming from the dialogue and map of Goodall’s work, this is a must watch documentary to introduce you into activism, environmentalists and, above all, hope and positive change for the footprint left by mankind.

I thought it was especially interesting for them to include her meeting with her assistant/worker where they’re trying to figure out her schedule for conferences and being where/when and such. It just offered a neat perspective into how much she does and how much she’s trying to cram in with her growing age, and the fact that she still has such a large commitment and power to her voice that she wants liberated before she passes on. There’s just something especially empowering about all that, I think.


Cinematography & Transitions:

I felt that the transitions to this documentary were really pretty fantastic. We got the voiceovers of Jane Goodall as she spoke at length in different parts and more of the detached audio with moving pictures representing the landscapes or worlds within the world of local communities. Various people were interviewed throughout the documentary and gave their thoughts and inspirations from Goodall and it made the importance of such activism really shine and even help to further inspire so many other people out there who may want to embark on similar careers.

I know for myself that it was really pretty inspiring and I might work into activism some day, too. I think it’s so awesome all the work Jane has done in her fields of interest and intense passions. I hope we still get to be blessed with a few more years of her work and her mission and her story. To be able to appreciate her ongoing impact and others enjoying her presence and her soul is so powerful, that I’m really grateful there was another documentary made about her (I didn’t watch the first one, though). I think our current day society tends to congratulate and celebrate lives AFTER they’ve passed on so it was really nice to see a present play by play of gratitude and appreciation. 🙂

Also noteworthy is that the documentary itself was broken up into transitional slides that had a few words on what that next section of the movie would be about. I also think that through the production of this movie that we got to see the quirks of Jane Goodall and her humor, let alone her kindness and compassion to folks.


Memorable Quotes:

  1. “If we lose hope then we must all give up if we think there’s no way forward…We mustn’t let [that] happen.”

  2. “My job is to go around and inspire people to take action”

  3. [About Goodall] ‘She is driven to her commitment–to her mission'”
  4. “Every person matters. And every animal does too. But every person makes some impact on the planet every single day and we get to choose what sort of difference we make”

  5. “…I truly believe it’s only when head and heart work in harmony that we can achieve our true human potential”

  6. “If you don’t talk to people how can you ever expect them to change?”

  7. “Hope attached to action [is what] we all take responsibility for”
  8. “Don’t be confrontational: reach people’s hearts to change their minds. Don’t do something because you want the honor and glory of it”

  9. Concept:

    How anger with the rest of the world sparked Goodall’s passion.

  10. “When you die there’s either nothing, which case is fine, it’s finished, over, you don’t know anymore. Or there’s something. And I happen to believe there’s more than just this one physical life. I haven’t the faintest idea what else there is but if that’s true then what greater adventure can there be?”


Information Delivery:

I found the information in this documentary to be engaging, visually pleasing, understandable and educated me well on what mattered or what were the highlights of Goodall’s mission and those around her.


My final thoughts:

So, I found this documentary on Disney+ when I began my first week’s free trial (even though I’ve signed up completely for the plan, :3). I wanted to watch something for what I’m now designating as “Movie Monday’s” and this was the one that stood out to me for a documentary and something I’d be interested in learning more about.

I had never really heard of Jane Goodall before I watched this documentary and this is the first one I’ve seen with her in it. I think I mildly recall a reference to her from one of my biology classes about her having taken such field study related notes with the chimpanzees in Africa.

Regardless, I was eager to learn and listen and become educated. I really enjoyed the entirety of the documentary and I think it’s really kinda inspired me to get back into environmentalist stuff. When I was a little kid I used to be really into animals and saving the planet and as I got older I drifted away from that. But I did some community based volunteer work within the Greater Boston area in college and one of them was trash picking and I really enjoyed doing that, so maybe when corona is over or the quarantine is lifted a bit, I’ll get back into that, even if it’s just around my local community for now. 🙂

Two other things I want to touch on briefly include:

The confrontation quote and subsequently the not doing something because you want the brownie points is something that I struggle with because I think I do seek that external validation somehow in some ways and I want to be praised and loved by others around me, which is odd and interesting to say and acknowledge at the moment.

Secondly, the final quote absolutely reminds me of the Marvel Cinematic Universe with how Endgame went and Stark’s sacrifice. You know the whole, “part of the journey is the end.” ❤

And lastly, an additional point, the public speaking in Goodall’s life also reminded me of Kevin Hines who I also greatly look up to and whom inspires me and why I share my mental health journey story. But, that’s it from me now. 😉


Recommendation Score:

8/10


 

Above all: thank you. Thank you so much for viewing this blog post, for liking it if you did and if you were gracious enough to leave me a comment. I hope to one day give as much back into the community that I found a home in as I had a few years ago. It’s become lonely just talking to a void. I may challenge myself to write shorter posts here and there too or to just post more in general. I’d like to return to my roots, myself.


I estimate an update blog post for either this coming Sun or Mon, by the way.

Lastly, my handwritten notes when I viewed this movie occurred on April 27th 2020; and I completed more of the writing and form of this review on May 1st.

Stay safe, peeps!

❤ ❤ ❤ xxxx

PS This is my first officially published film review!!! I have DOZENS of notes for others but I never got this far so I’m really pretty happy about this. The views and opinions of this post are my own and I’m coming from a pro-recovery mental health journey perspective so some things will be skewed with that in mind and for the inspiration/expected audience in mind of my peers who may be looking for pick me up movies. 🙂