BONUS Post

One more post before I poof for like 5 hours….

ONE. I had a dream last night where I had my first (and second, maybe third) girl kiss! *weeps* It was wonderful T_T

TWO. I changed my Firefox browser theme to lesbians kissing and a little rainbow πŸ˜€

THREE. I’ve been thinking about this since I got a comment about this blog’s layout, I’ve never showed you guys the full images behind the top and text based backgrounds.

I.e. They’re from photos I’ve taken.

The top (where you can see my watermark “Rocky Shores”) is a photo I submitted to Photography club at UMB for the Spring theme we had back in 2013, I think? (I’m quick posting after all)

Here it is:

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And the text based one is one I took of some fancy hydrangeas:

(one of my fave flowers)

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TA-FREAKIN-DA!

 

now, I reallllly gotta go.

Bye peeps!

generality

Boop!!!

So, this post is brought to you byyyyyy: Life update!! *’yeaaaah’ ‘whooooo’ ‘woot woot’*

So, I’ve had some sporadic posting this week, mainly with book reviews taking up a few more days than I thought they would. I haven’t done much art this week, but today was scrapbook day so I did some scrapbooking (unfortunately the worst thing to happen on a scrapbook day is to run out of adhesive tape D: 😦 so that sucks!!), I’ll try to be good and include a picture here….finnnnne:

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The first spread is one I started way back earlier this year in March, and so I finished it up today, even though my tape ran out! YAY!

The second one is still a work in progress, but I’m hopeful with more time I’ll be inspired to include a fancy layout with it and the appropriate stickers of course, too πŸ™‚

So, be like good Raquel and don’t make excuses even if things don’t work out the way you planned! You can still make something great out of it!! πŸ™‚


On top of that, I am working on my 8th chapter for my fanfiction!! πŸ˜€ I am on page 3 already πŸ™‚ Did a page a few days back and did another page today. YAY

 

Here’s some fancy stationary stuffs:

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I’m going to also work on answering messages and making comments. I also want to plan out some time for #RecoveryHome and making that interactive with you guys here. πŸ™‚ That will start probably on Tuesday, after the 4th of July. Or, maybe, on Monday. Not sure yet.

My family and I are having a cookout tomorrow so that’s snazzy. I should probably go for fireworks but I don’t know if I will for sure or not. *shrug*

I may do some art for the holiday though. And I do want to still get on that gift art #4!

I will also likely do some teachable moment stuffs. And reading.

My class starts in just 2 weeks, you guys!!!!!

I helped my Mom with some cleaning and reorganizing today.

I freakin’ love planner hauls/videos. So amazing.

Hmmm, let’s see, anything else?

I want to catch up on some posts I haven’t gotten around to. But for now, I feel like just laying back and relaxing. And having dinner and some water. πŸ™‚

 

I’ll see you guys in a bit!!

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Stay safe and have a fun holiday!! And for those of you outside the States, have a sparkling weekend!

 

It’s Sunnnnnndaaaay

You know what that meaaannnnsssss!!

I am heading out shortly to see the doggies! πŸ˜€ And I’ll be meeting Jeanine there, too! Hooray!

Today’s daily prompt is “fence” and I have lots of ideas to do for that, so look out for a fence post later this evening! I am bringing my camera this time too, so we’ll see if I wind up getting pictures or not πŸ™‚

 

Hope you ALL are well and that you have (or have had) a terrific Sunday with sunshine and warmth. It still boggles my mind that we’re only in the beginning of summer! It feels a bit like it should be over by now ahaha.

Anywho, I’ll see you guys later ❀ ❀ ❀

 

Stay safe!

Behind the Scenes

So, as my Queen Bee had noticed, I’ve been awfully quiet these past few days. While I’ve struggled a bit today, I am quite all right, all things considered. πŸ™‚

Here is a sneak peek behind the scenes of what I’ve been up to and what’s going on behind the blog.

 

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A doodle I was working on in Mama Mia’s restaurant when my Mom and I went out on Friday. June 17th

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A *NEW* backpack I got for myself (I’ve been eyeballing these for a while and have been thinking of either a backpack or a tote bag for…) art supplies when I go up to school/Boston as a replacement or adjunct (during school) for my backpack. πŸ™‚ ❀ Originally $30 but on clearance at Target for $9!!! HELLA STEAL! (Deal? Hmmm…) June 20th

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I freakin’ LOVE stationary. That is all.

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Painted this background of cardboard yesterday in the style of a RAINBOW ’cause I wanted to pretty it up for my next re-purposing of it. For now it’s holding my books on my second shelf bookshelf. It used to hold my bottles of acrylic paint, but I have a new clear package place from them in my pink basket filled with most of my art stuff (the other stuff is in the new backpack or out in my room). June 20th

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Current post I’m working on at the moment!! I may hit the sack soon though, but expect this baby out tomorrow!!!! πŸ˜€ (That’s what I did today, READ!). June 21st

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NOTES! For the Quotes section. πŸ™‚ Happy I got this baby done tonight too. That’s AWESOME and a BONUS

The only other thing to show you guys is some new photos I did and the coloring page two spread I finished a couple days ago πŸ™‚

Otherwise, I’m heading up to Boston on Thursday for school and therapy and probably hanging out with a friend. Then seeing a friend on Saturday and Sunday with Jeanine (and DOGS!!). I spent some of Sunday with my friend, Mr. T.S.

I’ll have a proper update about life and things tomorrow. Wish me luck on the book review and reading a NEW book!!! πŸ˜€

Hope you’re all well ❀

Trust in a new tomorrow. ❀ ❀ ❀

Recent Artwork (Lots of Me!)

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A photograph from this afternoon. A hornet who lost his wing 😦 He is alive, actually. I poked him after some photos and he scurried off later on.

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Another shot of him. I’m impressed and happy with the detail my lens picked up on. It’s not macro, for sure, but it’s still great!

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Do excuse the acne. πŸ˜› A photo shoot I had with myself at the gazebo in town, with my fancy, snazzy shirt and fancy dandy camera. πŸ™‚ Thought this shot was neat!! From June 12th 2016

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I like my eyes in this shot πŸ™‚ Can you tell what expression I was going for here? That’s a genuine question, ’cause I can’t quite tell!!! June 12th 2016

I took a lot of photos of my face in this shoot, so I’ll spread them out amongst other artwork here. πŸ™‚

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It’s important to SMILE πŸ™‚

I kid you not, there’s a lot of shots of my face in this shoot. If you’d like to see more from this, just let me know, and I shall post more!! I’m picking out some of the best/most interesting ones. This next round gets into some expressive artsy ones πŸ™‚

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Camera looking in through the sides of the gazebo. I really like ‘trapped’ themes. Although luckily they don’t hold as much emotional charge for me any more, yay!

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I also like ‘screaming’ types of photos. It helps if you actually make a soft sound. πŸ™‚

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Gotta use good old black&white too! πŸ™‚

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One of my faves for sure πŸ™‚ I just like the distance in this shot, the contrast and ‘cut off’ness of it, and the pain/emotion in my face. Photography is serious work!

Here are some throwback photos featuring similar themes:

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More of that ‘trapped’ theme, an actual fence this time, some masquerade mask fun and a good, fun shoot!!! From October 2015

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Also from October 2015. Wanted to have another clearer shot of the phrase on my wrists and playing with expressive emotions πŸ™‚

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Also from the October 2015 shoot. Current devID on DeviantART. πŸ™‚ I love this picture of me.

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Another fun shoot featuring “Anonymity” from September 2015

Now, for scrapbook pages!!!

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A more simple page. Worked on 6/3/16

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A very positive, uplifting scrapbook page. πŸ™‚ Created 6/8/16

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Hope you can read my writing under what I hold onto hope for! πŸ™‚

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This list is definitely clearer. ❀

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This one was also fun to create! I love me some washi tape πŸ™‚

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Here is a close up of the watercolored nightscape I did. Yes, those are trees at the bottom ❀

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Another simpler page featuring some fun pieces from magazines and a fancy dandy background, plus a quote I really like!! And, I got part of myself in the shot, haha, oops!! These last two both done on 6/15/16

And, although I still haven’t finished it, here is the latest shot I have of my coloring book two page spread:

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AAAANNNNND I think that’s it!!!

So yeah, if you’d like to see more of my photography, just let me know! And if you’d like a gift art out of photography, send me a message! I’d love to make stuffs. πŸ™‚

I haven’t started working on my latest gift art yet, but I have a good idea for it. Hint: It features a type of flowery plant. πŸ˜‰

If you guys would like to see more creative writing work/that fanfiction I’m working on (although it’s dark but will eventually fit this blog) let me know, too. Any ideas on the output I can make will be greatly appreciated. πŸ™‚ It feels a little strange uploading photos of myself here, but I’m reminding myself that I’d be uploading them onto DA just the same, so it’s okay! I guess it’s because it’s so personable. I’m also becoming more aware of how this blog is growing, and actually comes up under search engines now. That is new and different for me!!

Speaking of DA, I should try and upload some there tonight and make up some lost time tomorrow too, since I’ve newly proposed myself a schedule for that stuff. πŸ™‚

Okay, well, I’m off! Don’t be too surprised if I make YET ANOTHER post after this with the daily prompt! πŸ™‚

 

Hope you guys enjoyed everything I had to show you here!!!! Let me know what you think ❀ ❀ ❀

 

Stepping Stones of Self-Exploration

With a super hot laptop and a loud fan, plus my room’s fan spinning on its heel, I bring to yee all, an update! πŸ™‚

I was going to post last night and had begun to, but my mind was muddled and then my Mom and I were talking for a long while so I had to scrap that post. Ugh, I just got the hiccups AGAIN. Tired of these buggers. :/

Fun fact, I did my nails spontaneously this morning!

Don’t they just look snazzy? When they dry, they smell like bubble gum πŸ™‚ Which is the same scent as this pink fairy dust I have from Lush. πŸ˜€ I did pretty impressively with my left hand, all that ambidextrous work when it comes to IOS. *badass nod*

I’m feeling much, MUCH better now, too. Which is actually what this post is all about.

I set aside a couple hours today to do some self-exploration/journaling in my blogging journal. I’ve come up with a working schedule and a few lists–so let’s jump on in!!


First, this is a proposal schedule #1 for myself. It’ll be likely that I’ll have to change and edit this as the future progresses, but I have a working idea of a starting point for now. πŸ™‚

For DA activity, I’ve listed Tu Th and Sun’s.

For blogging, M W F Sat as “main” days, while a looser standard is set for the other leftover days. Depending on prompts, mood, what I have to talk about, etc.

Artwork, with and without inspiration worked on throughout each day

Positive messages, Create W F Sat with 5-10 at a time.

Exposures, 30 minutes each day, with a break on the weekend.

Outings and hang outs, 2-3 times a week.

The leftover figuring out stuff is for my basic hygiene and chores, replying to messages, work hours and that Stats class hours. This stuff I’ll get to another time to figure out more.


My Goals for Structure:

Keeping myself accountable.

Giving myself an organized structure.

Preparation for school/work.

Effectively juggling my fun and my work.

Working in line with my values.


Β My Values:

  • Honesty
  • Openness
  • Empathy
  • Positivity
  • Strength
  • Courage
  • Sharing my voice
  • Compassion
  • Determination
  • Organization (i.e. stationary XD <3)
  • Creativity
  • Expressiveness
  • Personal freedom
  • Authenticity
  • Personal growth
  • Unity
  • Making a difference
  • Inner harmony
  • Understanding
  • Vision
  • Hope
  • Self-evaluation/introspection

Values I Strive For but are a Work In Progress:

  1. Structure
  2. Balance
  3. Ambition
  4. Freedom
  5. Self-actualization
  6. Stability
  7. Tolerance
  8. Integrity
  9. Understanding
  10. Vitality
  11. Respecting others journeys.

I used this values list to help me figure out what mine were i.e. what stood out for me.

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Image from Google!!


My next task will be to define what each of these values mean to me.

 

Upcoming Blog Posts to Look Out For:

2 Liebster Awards

1 Little Engine Tag

Gift Art #4

Current artwork update

Daily prompts

Art therapy/teaching moments

Creative writing

Book reviews

Miscellaneous


I also want to work on and update my fanfiction very soon. So that may be a project for the weekend/into next week.

For now though, I have to head outside to help my Mom clean out and organize the garage. I forgot how well deadlines work for me πŸ™‚

See you all later!! ❀ ❀ ❀

Words of Motivation

This post is inspired by: Scentsy Scents Sunday Brightness

Today has started off as a raggedy blargh type of day. However, with music playing I am hoping that I can get myself motivated, up out of bed, eating breakfast and getting ready for some doggy play time as well as some photography today. I’d like to get there early so I have time to play with the doggies, take photos of them, and play some more after. πŸ™‚

I worked on this following piece earlier this morning, so here it is for us all to view!

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Photo by Me! From 2012 June. Words by me as well, yay rhyme scheme!

After doggy time today I’ll be reading more of that book I need to review tonight. So that is snazzy! πŸ™‚ I then have to tackle 3 others as they’ll be due soon too! :O

Tomorrow I will be out all day, as I have therapy in the morning and an IOOV presentation in the afternoon. It’s my first time at an inpatient venue, so I’ll get to see what that is like! I think I will try to tailor my words more towards that type of audience too, but, overall, I’m still learning! πŸ™‚

I would like to try and catch up on blog posts too, over the next week, as well as put stuff away into places in my room other than the floor! XD

I can start working this coming week too, which is exciting πŸ™‚

I also have to sign up for my Stats class for the second half of the summer. And I’m thinking of doing some self-reflection time to set up hours of the day where I do certain tasks. To bring some planning and organization into my life… πŸ™‚

Anywho, I should head off now! I have about 200+ pages left to read so I can get in that book review. Wish me luck!!!!

 

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About Blog + Coloring

Okay, so I have a couple of ideas I want to present in a few new posts. This post will be about some more about this blog, recent color making, and just me talking. The next post, I’d like to write about the daily prompt, as I’m leaving the house at 4p to head over to McLean for tonight’s OCD Support Group. πŸ™‚ So here we go!!

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MORE ABOUT THIS BLOG:

In one of my last posts, I talked about in detail some of the topics I’d like to discuss on this blog. I also want to help define what this place is all about, i.e. what you’ll find here. As I’ve spent more time shaping this blog, I’ve realized I want to include more than what I initially thought about.

For instance, there will be:

-Book reviews

-Tags (unless this changes at some point)

-Daily prompts

-Gift Art

-Art in general

-Teachable posts

-Mental health

-Recovery + Wellness

-Life updates

-Projects

Depending on how things are going, I may also add some of my creative writing on here. There’s one short story I’m thinking of in particular, although it’s dark and doesn’t necessarily match up what this blog is about, other than being a cool story and something that I’m proud of! ^^;

Whoops, I wasn’t done with the list, oops! XD

Basically, I want the focus here to be on positivity and support and recovery, yet I also want to add in other things that I like doing, like the prompts, artwork and projects. And life updates are good for just general posts, I’m going to try and remind myself my posts don’t have to be a considerable long length for me to post. I like being active daily, but with more responsibilities adding (like coursework) I’ll have to cut back a smidge. I’d still like to post on designated days or something, but that’s more future work!

I would like to introduce a project idea into August, so that’s one thing I’ve got cooking up behind the scenes! I really like the gift art stuff and sharing my artwork in general. πŸ™‚ Daily prompts are good too because I can use some inspiration from time to time.

I also want this place to reflect my identity, so not EVERYTHING will be about mental health, it’ll be fun stuff and other things about life too. πŸ™‚

I hope that explains my stuffs!!

COLORING WORK:

I’d like to share some of the adult coloring I am working on currently (I started yesterday). I’m doing a two page spread from ‘The Enchanted Forest’ by Johana Brasford.

Here’s somewhat where it began:

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This is the big spread, yes, that’s my knee down there. And yes, ‘Fuck Feelings’ is what I’m reading (and cannot WAIT to review!!) and all the work here used watercolor, the ones you see there.

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Close up of the right

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Close up of Left.

The top three were from last night. Here’s what it looks like now:

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Don’t mind my messy workspace! πŸ˜€ Here is the full spread, and this part includes more watercolor (regular and pearlescent), and some ink work (the purple leaves around the pink trees)

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Close up Right.

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Close up Left.

So yep! That’s what I’ve been up to. πŸ™‚ I want to write that daily prompt now, as my Mom and I are leaving half an hour earlier instead. And so I’ll be gone all evening, and will be back online tomorrow morning, for anyone who wonders where I’ve disappeared too. I’m thinking tomorrow is when I’ll be making B.E’s magical gift art (I do know what I’m making for her! <3) and I may or may not get out positive messages for folks at the support group tonight, grrr!

Any who though, I’ll make more comment rounds tomorrow, too.

Hope you all are feeling well and dazzling and amazing. ‘Cause you ARE! ❀ ❀ ❀

 

Good News!

Wow, now that is quite the nice exclamation point right there. Very bold and distinctly excited! =]

So, I have a series of good news! πŸ™‚ First, found my iPod in the lost and found at school yesterday!!!!! Thank the grace of ALL the gods, I’m so glad I got it back! If I had the capability to cry with joy I would! (For some reason I’ve not been able to cry at all lately, sigh).

Second, I need to clean my glasses because there are so many smudges between my eyes and the lenses and the computer screen. O_o

Third, though! I am DONE with school!!!! *Imagine a grand two arm gesture into the air* Granted, I’m not graduating I’m just done with the SEMESTER. But even so, that is AWESOMENESS!!! I made it through! Woot woot! I will likely make a post about that experience in the future :3

Fourth, actually… I think that’s about it for the good news! Now it’s just general thoughts and things. :3 Although, okay, there IS another one, but I want just a special post about that, so you’ll see it later today! You would have seen it yesterday but I just chiillllled after getting home from my last final.

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If you happened to be wondering what photo is currently set as my profile image, here it is! Taken May 10.2013

For now, I’m probably going to enjoy the next few days, just applying to jobs (euuuuughhhh *imagine a groan for having to write and re WRITE all the same information 24 times into every new application* *also imagine an eye twitch for this chaos* especially when the application won’t go through and everything fucking site asks for a new account….*controlled sigh*)

Hanging out with my hamster (Nova by the way! Chinese dwarf hamster)

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Nova in his little cage! =] He’s pretty fast so this was an excellent capture! 2.6.2016

Getting to play with doggies on Sunday! πŸ˜€ Soooooo excited!! Today’s Friday right? Ahaha. Prowling the Internet and blogging whooooooooo! =]

Other than writing down some reminders I need to do, I think that’s about it. I got my IOOV supplies a couple days ago for the Carney hospital presentation I have next Tuesday. And the Samaritans Breakfast for Hope that I’m attending next Th is happening where there will be speakers and lots of people I don’t know to begin the conversation about suicide, so that’s important and fancy. I’m really looking forward to it! I signed up for it way back in February, I think. I also have to contact them again in general (for some future volunteer work on the phone lines). Many, many reminders I need to write down! Gotta call my psychiatrist to change my next appointment, hear back from my current therapist about the application/referral process for MSE’s partial, return a library book and do 2 book reviews about them on here and DA, send a few emails (to my brother about this blog, some about a directed study, and just replies), check my grades on WISER (my JA grade may be up there), do some art work, watch some House MD and ER episodes (yuuuuuuus), update my DA, blog some daily prompts and other news and articles, annnd oh, work on my fanfic so I can update that soon!

Yeah, got a lot to do! Good list, though, good list. I finished another coloring piece =] I was in a scrapbooking mood last night too, but didn’t get a chance to fulfill it, I think today that I will! I’ve also got to reply to a couple of job emails. Oooo, I gotta send back one of my books too. Should do that today. I also want to set up some photography projects for myself, since I’ve been neglecting photography lately 😦 And then I want to spread some more activity on here as well. Think I’m gonna fiddle with the font color again… πŸ˜€

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My last doggy Bayya (short for Bella), an Italian Greyhound with her three little leggies. She was so cute and so adorable and forever a puppy. Love this photo I took of her. ❀ She totally knew how to rock out her poses! (I bet she loved it!) RYP. Rest Your Paws. (she passed away end of last July) Photo captured 7.9.2012

I think that’s about it for me for now!!

Hope you’re all doing well, punching issues in the face and sharing a smile with the world today! ❀ ❀ ❀ Stay safe!!

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